loosing me

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I think my mind is killing me

At first it was a tickle

A soft little whisper

Then it was something bigger

It tasted dank and bitter

With every beat of my heart

I wished from this world I could part

Because I do not belong

In a world that ignores my very song

Who am i you ask

Well I am a girl who wears a mask

I am no one

I am a girl undone

With every moment I survive

I i wish that i wasnt and every moment I dream

I wish I could stay asleep

I think its because my mind is murduring me

Hushing my silent screams

Biding me pleas hate

And I a humble follower

What does one do

When it is not people that hurt you

But you...

And what can you do

When your very mind rebukes you

But for good reason too

What I do

What I am

Is something of a monster

I have done ghastly things

I am a product of my shame

My mind alone is all that knows

My mind alone accuses

My mind has judged me

And found me lacking

Why not why not i ask me

What i do i know is twisted

What i am i know is wrong

How can I despise my mind for hating me

Of two faces how can I blame one

For i know what i have done

I know what i alone have done

And i hate me

Oh hate me for it

I think my mind is killing me

Its vines and roots are choking me

The shards of glass pumping through me

The roots of hate imbue me

And i am all the more elightened

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