Kade
I couldn't breathe. I had to get out of there. My horrible mistake was there to taunt me. I was a killer. Someone who took the life of an innocent soul who believed everybody had a purpose in life. Someone I loved and cared for. Who knew someone could bring out so much pain without knowing who I am? She brought out the worst in me and I felt like I had to hurt her too, for bringing back something that took so long to forget even if it only lasted a minute.
Once Marigold finished her song I took a while to sort out my thoughts. I needed to release my anger. I always kept bottling up how I felt to look perfect to everybody that looked up to me. At a moment like this, I didn't care about my reputation. I wasn't Kade. I was the lost boy who had slaughtered the girl I loved.
"Bravo! Encore!" The cheers seemed distant even though they were happening right next to me. How could they? If only they knew that words with a melancholy melody could break a soul that was barely hanging on.
Emotions. Many of them hitting me all at once making me despise myself for such a crime.
" I think this was the worst performance today. You lack skill. Practice for next year. Your voice sucks" I blurted out without one sense of thought.
" You're such an ass like I suspected. Go eat shit."
I was an ass. I have to hurt other people so I won't expose the real me. The one who only feels pain. The one who only seemed to care about how he felt.
Before I could go any deeper into the black hole of my suppressed emotions, I was interrupted by Ms. Granger.
"Ms. Fawn, go to the principal's office. We don't except foul language."
Marigold walked off stage and left the auditorium with the one person who never seemed to disappoint her after a day of meeting her like I did. I only cared about how I felt but the most facetious thing is that I let her go to the office. I justified my unreasonable actions.
I was a coward.
She was preeminent to all the other performances today but my selfish thoughts overrode all logic. I was hurt and I wanted the world to feel it. Yet, I was too afraid to admit the crime I had committed. I pleaded guilty but I found a way to conceal it. My friends use me for popularity and I'm okay with it as long as I am seen as the hero and not the villain who enjoys killing ingenuous lives.
Popularity wasn't astonishing to Marigold. I felt like I could be me around her and I had only known her for a day. I wanted to know everything about her even though I wouldn't be able to do the same. She was different and I guess that's what I was looking for in a town where everybody seemed to be a carbon copy of their parents. I wasn't and I assume she wasn't either.
I felt like she could be my escape from the name I have created for myself and I would finally have a real friend. As of right now, I ruined all my chances of ever becoming even an acquaintance with the girl.
The day dragged on. I was able to skip three of my periods with the auditions. I probably missed a lot of important information. I was smart enough to go visit my teachers the day before and ask for the homework that would be assigned next class and the lesson that would be thought that day.
Lunch time came and the entire student body rushed to be the first ones in the line to get their food. As I walked towards our lunch table, people were parting from my way. Why couldn't they just treat me like a normal person? That's all I wanted.
"What's up man?" Jayce asked.
"Nothing I just got back from judging the annual talent show auditions."
" Yo, you're so lucky. Are you ready for our game on Friday?"
"Yeah."
"That's my man!" Jayce and some of the players from the team that usually sat with us patted me on the back. I just loved the pressure of having a winning streak. Our coach called us the 'Dream Team' because we had won every game of the season so far showing no mercy to any team that came our way.
"Hey, Kade" Evelyn seductively said touching my shoulder.
Evelyn Colt. She was the girl everybody envied and the one they wanted to be. She had been trying to get me to ask her out for the past few months but I'm just not interested. She wasn't the girl I was looking for. I don't think I could love anybody after Faith. Faith showed me how to love the real me. Evelyn was just into me for the popularity. At my age, any guy would mess around with that but I didn't have an urge to.
"Hey," I said removing her hand from my shoulder.
"I can't wait to see you play on Friday" she stated running her hands through my hair. This girl was clueless.
"Kade, someone seems to be giving you a death stare. It's the most hilarious thing I have ever seen. Do you know her?" Jayce laughed.
I looked at the direction he was pointing to and saw Marigold giving me a death glare. If looks could kill I would be dead as of right now.
"I rejected her and she got mad. Ms. Granger had to send her to the office. She's an outcast."
They laughed.
I regret saying that but I have to continue to put this act on because I can't jeopardize my secret or my popularity.
The rest of the day went by at a leisurely pace. I went to my locker to retreat my bag. As I did, I looked over to Marigold's locker. I wish she wouldn't leave so early from school. I could've probably grown some balls and apologized to her.
I closed my locker and walked down the hall. I waited 10 minutes until I was the only person left at Pleasant Hill High School. I walked home thinking about how my day had gone, regretting all my decisions. I wish popularity didn't dictate my life but I let it. I arrived at the building, walking up the stairs until I reached the little run down apartment door that I knew was mine. I fumbled to get my keys that were somewhere in my bag. Where are they? They should be in here. Did I lose them?
"Are you looking for these?" I heard a voice ask.
I cursed under my breath. I know that voice. They were ruthless and always seemed to get what they wanted.
I knew that voice.
"Marigold?"
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Author's Note
Here is your weekly chapter. I hope you enjoy it. I may or may not post a chapter next week because of Christmas and because I still have school for a whole week before break this upcoming week. I'll try. Enjoy!
