Just A Teasing Book

Part 9: Well, it Was Intentional.

Dear Diary,

Nah, just kidding, I'm pretty sure if I started every chapter out like that, I'd die.

Let's just forget that ever happened.

Beginning of October

8:05 PM

I walk with Jess around the stands of our town's high school football field. People want a new field, a better field, a stadium to be specific. But this town is not big enough to need a stadium. The only thing I think should be built in this 4 million dollar project, is the track. The track people, whomhave gone to state many times, has earned it. The football team, who has never gone to state, has not.

However, our team is pretty dominant this year. We're undefeated so far I believe. There may even be a hope we win state this year. That would be the first time ever the football team has won.

But, we're kicking someone's ass once again, so there's no need to watch. Jess and I walk to my second favorite spot in the stands, the railing directly by the end zone, that I like to sit on.

"You still like him don't you?" Jess asks, pushing her glasses up her nose. "That's why you brought me over here, away from all of our friends."

I look at her and then back at my hands folded on my lap and sigh. I rub my eyes with my finger tips and refill them on my lap.

"I think I do, Jess. The problem is, I don't know for sure!! I thought I was done! This is so frustrating!" I rant, pouring out everything I have to say. "I'm such an idiot. I need to makeup my mind already!."

"It's okay Ren," she pats my shoulder.

"No, it's not," I mutter, brushing my fingers through my long ponytail. "I stopped liking him! I really did. I thought my crush on him was over. I even posted it in that fucking story."

She laughs. "What's so wrong with liking him?"

"Oh, let's enjoy the freedom. Yes freedom! Freedom, freedom, freedom, HURRAY," I mock myself, mostly rambling. Then I realize she asked me a question. "Wait, what?"

"What's so wrong with liking him?" she asks again.

"First of all, I promised myself I wouldn't date anyone until freshman, maybe even sophomore year. I plan on keeping that pact by the way. Secondly, he is probably the least available person I have ever met, and he's actually single! Third, he doesn't like me Jess. That's the most frustrating part of this whole thing."

"I know, I know, but it's Wilson, Ren, the hiding his emotions guy. Figures you would actually get a crush on him."

"Don't remind me," I scowl. "I guess it won't be that bad. I just have a crush on a boy. That's totally normal for a girl right?"

"Right. Just a totally normal boy who hides his emotions," she jokes.

"I see his emotions at times, but he hides them well. He talks to me though. I can convince him to have deeper conversation. He's a great friend and I don't want to ruin that."

"But you want to be more..." she sings.

"High school!" I interrupt, turning away from her and jumping off the rail.

"Mmmhm."

"Let's get back to the group," I glare at her, playfully of course. "I'm pretty sure Gemma is looking for us."

I take my phone from my back pocket and see the three texts she sent me, asking where "we" are.

"Yeah, she's definitely looking for us," I grin, showing Jess the texts while walking back.