A Vyladmau Christmas

Panic Attack

  5 Days Till Christmas Eve

I woke up and realized what today was.
We were halfway there.
5 days left.
I started pacing, and the thoughts came back.
I honestly was starting to have a panic attack, or anxiety, which I have rarely, but when I do have them they are really bad. I couldn't breath, of breath that well when I could, so I just curled up into a ball an layed down on the ground.
After a couple minutes, my freakout ended, but I stayed on the ground.
It was comfy.
I just stared at the ceiling.
It was weird, but I liked it. I'm not suicidal, sometimes people think I go through a depression, but the truth is that I love my life. I have the most incredible people in my life right now.
Aphmau.
Garroth.
Mom.
Dad.
Even Zane.
Yes, even the cold hearted, pony loving, Zane.
And me and Travis text sometimes as well, same with me and Laurance. I have amazing people, which is why I'm not depressed.

After Aph and I went to the park, she came over and spent the night, so I'm going to go downstairs and check up on her.

I walked down the stairs and saw her making pancakes.
"Halfway!" She said.
"Yup. I can cook instead, you know."
"Not as well!"
"That is... True!"
We laughed.
After she was done making the pancakes, we sat at the breakfest bar and ate.
We didn't really talk while eating, we just, ate.
Suddenly, she received a text.
"Oh, babe I gotta go. Katelyn."
"Awe... Well okay then. Bye!"
"Bye!" She kissed me on the cheek before she left.
I felt, comfortable around her. Like I could be myself and that made her happy.
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Tbh there your goals and you know it~ well enjoy!!
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