Sinful Secrets

Chapter 10

Morning came to awaken Kesha, if she was sleep. She couldn't sleep a bit. Her mind was too focused on Darren. Her calls to him left unanswered. During her shower, she felt alone. During breakfast, the table felt empty, other than Jeremy and her mother there. She missed him badly. During her car ride to work with Desiree and Faith, she was the silent one this time. "What's wrong Kesha?", Faith asked. "Maybe I should go see him after work.", she responded. "Its only been two days Kesha. You'll adjust.", Desiree commented. "Easy for y'all to say. I'm here listening to y'all talk about y'all happiness and shit.", Kesha scolded. Faith chuckled a bit. "Well just text him then. He might at least respond.", Faith suggested. Kesha did just that. "Hey. I miss you.", She texted him. As they pulled up, she got a text back. It read "I'm sorry. I miss you too. When are you coming back so we can talk stuff out?". "Next week. I need time to think". This gave her closure to pull through the day. Desiree made it to her office to see Tracy standing st the door, dressed in his usual "sexy dork" like fashion. "Hey sweetness.", he greeted. She responded with a subtle wave. He leaned in to steal a kiss, but she moved back. "What's wrong?", he asked. "It's nothing. I just want to get some work done.", she answered. She tried to walk to her desk, but Tracy stepped back in front of her. "Tracy move.", she told him. "There's a toll to pass.", he informed, flashing his brightened smile. She tried not to look at him, but once her eyes latched to his. She gave him a quick peck on the lips. He then moved one foot out of the way. "That was nice, but not good enough if you want to keep your job.", he jokingly said. Desiree's smile grew, trying to fight the chuckle growing in her throat. She pulled his head and darted her tongue into his mouth. Once those ten seconds passed, the lock ceased. "Well you have granted unlimited access for that one.", Tracy quipped as he wasled back to his desk. "I hate you.", Desiree said as her chuckle bursted out. "Love you too sweetheart.", replied. Her smile stuck onto her face. "Tracy kept stealing glances at her. Everytime he looked, she was still smiling. "What's up with the corners of your face?", Tracy asked. "No reason.", she teasingly answered. "You're welcome.", he said as he turned back around. "What you mean?", she asked.  Tracy ignored, knowing what he was doing. "Tracy I know you hear me". He still ignored her. She decided not to pursue at that point and focus on her work. It was poking at her brain everytime she looked at him. He has yet to turn around and look back at her. He then got up and put a chair beside Desiree. Once he sat back down at his desk, Keith came into the room. They did their usual greeting and kiss as Tracy continued to work. Keith talked about his day so far,  but Desiree barely listened. She kept taking glances at Tracy. Was there something wrong with him or what?  "Babe. Babe? Babe.", Keith called. "Huh?", she answered as she came to her senses. "Are you okay?", he asked. She nodded to him in assurance. "Well I was just wondering since you hardly said a word this whole time.", Keith noted. "Sorry honey. Work just been hasseling since it's closing week.", she explained. "I understand. Well I'm finna head back to work and let you finish up here.", he said as he kissed her cheek and put the chair back in its usual spot. "I love you.", said as he walked to the door. "Love you too.", she responded. Once the door closed,  Desiree walked over and turned Tracy's chair around to face her. "Tracy what's wrong?", she sternly asked him. "Nothing. Just seeing if you care.", he jokingly said as he pecked her lips. She spinned his chair around quick and walked back to her desk. "Make me sick.", she said. Tracy followed Desiree back to her desk. "Baby I'm sorry.", he said to her as he leaned to gaze into her eyes. She tried to hide the smile that was surfacing. "Come on baby. Show me that sexy smile. I'll show you mine.", said, flashing his prize smile. She turned her head away from him, trying not to show him her smile. The turning of her head left her neck unguarded, which Tracy used to his advantage. He sunk his teeth into her neck like and wolf on its pray. The bite stunned her for a bit until she pushed him off. "We're at work Tracy.", she pointed out as she rubbed her neck. "Your eyes showed you were in another place. Like my bed.", he joked. She rolled her eyes and turned back to her computer. While she began working again, Tracy sat and watched her. "What now boy.", she said. "You forgot the "I" earlier.", he responded. "What are you talking about?", she asked. "When Keith said "I love you". You didn't use an "I" with your response". "So. What's that supposed to mean?", she asked also. "For one, you usually say "I" with your phrase. For two, it's different without that "I". It was like your mind was somewhere else. Well we both know it was on me, but I'm not gonna pin it just yet.", Tracy explained. Desiree was surprised about how observant he was and how confident he was in his observation. He was so sturdy with his explanation that was starting to believe it herself. Tracy eased back into her face. "Should I pin it?", he asked, grinning. Desiree was chocolate, but not chocolate enough to fully cover the fact that she began to blush. "Tracy, me and Keith are connecting a lot more and I don't think this is right.", she confessed. Tracy began to chuckle.  "Desiree, sweetie, we went through this before. I know you and Keith got this thing going, but you still can't deny that we have something too. Desiree looked away. Tracy tenderly kissed her forehead. "I'll always be here when you need me though.", he stated. "No need. Keith is all I need.", Desiree responded. Tracy noticed her leg shaking. She was tempted, but not tempted enough. "So you really love this guy huh?", he asked. "Yes Tracy", Desiree confirmed. Tracy responded with a simple "Okay" and walked back to his desk and continued his work, and so did Desiree. Meanwhile, Kesha was in her own space in her office. Her mind just couldn't forget the fact that Darren has cheated on her. She was taking her friend's advice and try to forget him, but on the side, she wanted him back badly. As she was looking at the picture of her and her once-was family, a woman came in. "Damn Heather do you knock?", Kesha quipped. "Sorry Mrs. Manns, but we have a problem with your spreadsheet. I was wondering if you could come check it out for us.", Heather asked. Kesha got up and followed, leaving her phone behind. Kesha was explaining her work for 20 whole minutes until she felt for her phone, which she forgot. She went back to her office and saw she had 3 missed calls and a voicemail, All from Darren. "Hey baby. I miss you. Look I'm sorry for everything. Come home Saturday night please and let's talk about this. Hope to see you soon baby.", the voicemail spoke out as if Darren was still on the phone with her. She quickly tried to call back, but to no answer each time. She just sat there next. The calendar showed that it was only Tuesday. She couldn't wait. As the clock reminded her that it was time to go, Kesha slowly walked out into the car. "Kesha, what's wrong?", Desiree asked, noticing Kesha's blank expression. "Darren called.", she answered. They began to sigh at her. "What did he say?", Faith asked. "He said to come by Saturday so we can talk about everything.", Kesha said. " Kesha, it's only been a few days. Maybe you shouldn't go.", Desiree advised. "But Desi you know I'm missing him like hell.", Kesha proclaimed. "Well maybe you should go. Heck maybe before then if you can't take it.", Faith advised. "Well I don't know y'all. I'll just how this week plays out with me. Just no contact with him till Saturday.", Kesha said. The girls nodded in agreement as they pulled up to drop Kesha off. She walked into the house and was greeted by Jeremy hugging her leg. He always made her smile the most. She put her purse down and hugged him tight. So is everything good with you and Keith?", Faith asked. Desiree wanted to tell her everything as usual, but the fact of Faith is dating Tracy really doesn't give her much room to talk to her about him. "Yes. We had a few small bumps, but we're making it.", Desiree said. "How about you and Tracy?", she asked. "Well we're doing good. He's really sweet to me, but im going to a conference tomorrow so I told him I won't be over there tonight and it was so cute how he was telling me how much he is going to miss me. ", Faith responded with a subtle smile. "That's sweet.", Desiree commented in a subtle, yet sarcastic way. She then dropped her off at Tracy's house. He opened the door and proceeded to hug Faith once she walked up. Desiree just sat and watched. Tracy peeked over her shoulder and looked at Desiree. He then mouthed the words "Call me" to her. She drove away at that point. That night, as Kesha changed out of her clothes, she checked her phone periodically, only to no notification from Darren. She tried not to Acknowledge it until Saturday, but her patience grew shorter by the hour. And by the fact that is was still Tuesday didn't help at all. She called him again, but to no answer. Her mind began cracking. How could he just call so much and say that stuff in the voicemail then not answer any of her calls throughout the day? "Hey. Darren? I know you're probably busy, but I love and miss you too. I'll be seeing you. Call whenever Okay? Bye" was the voicemail to Darren she left, hoping it will reach his ears. Desiree was at home with Keith, who was in the living room while she was in bed. Tracy entered her brain again. She checked to see where Keith was before she went into the bathroom to call Tracy. "Hello?", Tracy answered. "So why did you want me to call?", she asked in a soft whisper-like tone. "You sound sexy right now.", Tracy commented. "Shut up. Why did you want me to call?", she asked again. "Faith is gone for awhile and I'm lonely. I need someone to keep me company.", he said in a joking, pitiful manner. "I'm at home Tracy. Call one of your other females.", she responded. "Damn, what do you think I am?", he asked. "Look. I just want your company for the night.", he followed. "I can't. Keith is here.", she pointed out. "Well if you feel like that I'll see you at work tomorrow. I guess I'll just go to sleep at 2 a.m.", He said. They hung up and Desiree climbed back into bed. Keith then walked in wrapped around her. "You okay baby?", he asked. "Huh? Oh yeah I'm good.", Desiree responded. An hour passed and Keith is already in deep sleep. Desiree checked her phone. It was already 12. She looked over t Keith and slipped from under his grasp. She threw on jogging pants and a jacket, not thinking of a shirt. As she grabbed her keys and left out of the door, Keith's eye opened. Desiree pulled into the back of Tracy's house and knocked on the backdoor. He opened it with a smile. "I knew you would come.", he said. "How?", she asked him. "Just come inside. It's cold out there. She stripped down and they climbed into bed together. "Maybe I should go.", she suggested. "Why?", he asked. "What about Keith?", she asked. "If you are so worried about Keith, why are you here with me? You can go back if you want.", he said. She layed in silence, turned to Tracy who was directly behind her, wrapping her tight, and kissed him tenderly.