Sinful Secrets

Chapter 13

As Tracy lips were pressed against Desiree's, she began thinking about the note she found, just trying to justify what was happening right now. Every thought that she had about it left her mind as their bodies were getting closer. His hands began sliding up her back until he made it to her bra, which he got off pretty quickly. Desiree began to get wet by the simple though of how eager Tracy wanted her. She unzipped his pants to reveal his surprisingly large member. She couldn't do anything but stare at it, thinking about if she would want to attempt oral with him. His hand touched the back of her hard, trying to steer her down there anyway. She moved her head back and said to Tracy with a smirk "Sorry but head is only for one person.", Desiree stated. After that was said, she started to feel less and less guilty about this encounter, and that started to scare her. As the touching and caressing continued, Desiree promptly stopped the session. "Tracy, this has been going on too long and has been taken too far. We shouldn't do this. We're both in relationships now and we need to act like it.", She said, stepping away from. All Tracy could do is smirk. "Baby I know this. We're in the wrong, but it's only because we've been wasting too much time just playing games. We want eachother, from before you and Keith's problems to before Faith stepped in and I've been the only one doing something about it. Desiree was speechless. He sounds so right but could he have been playing in Desiree's head? These thought kept repeating in her mind until she just came back to her senses. "I gotta go. It's getting late ya know.", she said as she got dressed. "You're right.", he responded to her with a straight face, putting his shirt back on. As Desiree drove off she kept getting this pain in the back of her head. She doesn't know what she wants to do or who she wants to do it with. She's never been this kind of person, especially to Keith, but why now? She decided she will figure it out in the morning after she sees Keith.
That night, Kesha didn't even try to sleep. She just paced outside of her mother's house for hours crying and talking to herself, just trying to get an understanding of where everything went wrong. What she didn't do right, what she could've done better, anything that could make sense. During her pacing, she noticed her phone vibrating. It was Darren. "I guess his trifling ass seen the door open.", she said in her head. After the ringing ceased, a voicemail popped up from him. To prepare for it, Kesha lit another cigarette as she pressed play. "Baby, I seen the door open after I took a shower and I figured you came over to get more stuff. I heard you wanted to see me and I'm sorry I didn't hit you back earlier, but call me back please.", the voicemail played. As Kesha finished her cigarette, she called him back. Surprisingly, he answered on the first ring. "Hello?", he said. "Hey. I got your message. What's going on?", Kesha immediately asked. "Nothing much really. How about you?", He responded. "No, I mean what the hell has been going? Like why would you hurt me like this? What have I done for you to do me like this?", Kesha asked, not wanting to waste anymore time playing phone tag. "Look, Kesha, I love you. You've been nothing but good to me. This is just my choice to step out. I never wanted to hurt you, because you don't deserve to be hurt. I never intended to be tied with just one woman.", Darren answered. Realizing that he didn't know that she knew about it being Eric, Kesha just clenched her teeth and responded with a subtle "Mhhm". "Now you have to understand Kesha, because I don't want any misunderstandings, This has been a feeling I've had for 4 years now.", he explained. This information shocked Kesha. "Tha- That's when we got married.", she stammered, not believing what she's hearing. "I know. I never wanted to get married. You've been nothing but amazing and never gave me a reason to leave, so I felt like I couldn't, but now I came to terms with me not wanting to suppress my feelings and plans for someone else's.", He sternly explained, sounding as sure as he ever been. "Baby we could've worked it out. I always wanted you to be honest with me. Why now? Why when we built so much together?", she questioned, trying to fight back tears, knowing he's not going to tell her the real reason. "Baby we've grew apart. We got two different life styles we want to do. You want the married life, I wanted the opposite. I'm just not a one-woman man.", he answered. Kesha couldn't hold it in anymore. She couldn't understand why he would rather tear her down than tell her the truth. "What about Jeremy huh!?" She questioned him angily, tears flowing down her cheeks. "He's what's been keeping me around this whole time, but I was thinking he could live with me. I know you're doing good, but he's going to need man in his life to teach him right.", Darren said. Still showing no sympathy for her at all. "You're going to take him"? "If I have to. I got my lawyers just in case, plus the house is in my name so you're technically homeless". Kesha was three seconds away from a mental breakdown, but before she made it over the edge, she stopped crying. Her eyes carried a blank stare as she looked into the distance. "Okay. I understand. I'll drop him off tomorrow okay?", she asked, emotionless. "That's fine. Please get some rest tonight. I love you.", he proclaimed. She didn't respond, just hung up the phone and lit another cigarette. After all that has been exchanged, he still said he loved her. As the many unanswered questions and mixed emotions swirled within her, she flicked her cigarette into the grass and proceeded into the house to get prepared for tomorrow.