Anonymous-a joshleen fanfiction

I still love you

At the hospital-Joshua's POV
Jesus Christ. I didn't see that coming. I'm shook to be honest. (😉) Colleen might be dead. I have no emotion as I don't even know if this is actually happening. I better text all the ballingers. I begin with Rachel. Hold on, she'll want to know how I know. I'll let her do it. I then decide to check my phone to see what's up on the Internet until I realise I don't have.....my phone. Oh for fuck sake. I don't have A phone. Colleen had it and was running about with us when she got hit. "Are you Colleen Evans' husband? Joshua?" The doctor asks. I grin from ear to ear. "Yes, yes I am." I lie, totally delighted he called me her husband. "She's awake. Come on in!!" The doctor says happily, holding the door open for me. "Thank you." I say and walk in. "Hey snoopy." She says to me. I start to cry. I think to myself, I probably shouldn't do this. "Hiya fraggle!" I reply. "How are you feeling now?" I ask. "Better. I have something for you. I asked a nurse to buy it for me as I had the cash on me." She says and hands me a wrapped box. I open it to find an iPhone seven plus inside. "Sorry I broke your phone. And your heart kinda." She says. "I don't care about the phone! I only care that you're okay! But I'm keeping the phone." I say then laugh. "But Josh. Seriously. There's something I have to say to you." She says. "Hold on. Me first. Why did you say I'm your husband? Do you have amnesia?"I say. "Nope. I'm about to get to that. Joshua David evAns. I know you don't wanna just forgive me, but at least just hear me out. Divorcing you was the biggest regret of my life. That being said, I really did think I was making a good decision. And the right one, but I was wrong. And all these years I hate myself for breaking your heart. You and your family probably despise me for doing thaT To You. So I know if ever in a bazillion Years you took me back, your family would probably never wanna see me, or you probably would still hate me. But I just want you to know that I regret it everyday. I always will. I was stupid.I made it seem like those eight years meant nothing to me. They meant EVERYTHING to me.They  were the best eight years of my life.Cutting a long story short....I still love you Josh.

Oooooooooh she's not dead but she luuuuuuurves hiiiiiiim! Love y'all. Next update will go up today. :)