Anonymous-a joshleen fanfiction

Left behind.

Joshua's POV- December 21st
We just arrived at Rachel's parents house! "You're Josh! I'm Rachel's dad, Denis, and this is Rachel's mom, my wife, Margaret. It's a pleasure to meet you." Denis said. "Josh! How are ya, boY?" Margaret said in an Irish accent."hello Mrs McCarthy. I'm good thanks." Reply. "Josh!! I'm Rachel's brother, Kevin. This is our oldest brother Jonathan." A happy voice said. "Hi Kevin, hi Jonathan! Pleasure to meet you." I reply shaking both of the boy's hands. "Josh!" My mom said coming down the stairs along with my dad, my older brother Jeremy, and my younger sister Erin. "Hi guys!" I say hugging them all. I talk to my family as Rachel talks to hers
December 25th-Christmas Day
*ding!* "that's the turkey!" Kevin laughs. We head to the dining room with the large circular table laid out with cutlery and placemats. We ate, pulled Christmas crackers, talked, and laughed. It was a great time. Then, I learned they have a family tradition that they burn their wrapping paper from their gifts in a huge bonfire! So we did that, Rachel and I cuddled all night. It was lovely to take my Mind off of Colleen and everything that has happened, and just relax and be with my girlfriend.it was a very, merry Christmas. But that changed...
December 26th, st Stephen's/Boxing Day. Joshua's POV
Yesterday was great. I really wanna spend the rest of my life with Rachel. All day we watched movies in bed, had some turkey sandwiches using the leftover turkey from yesterday's Xmas dinner, and ate chocolates. We're going back to la tomorrow. And Rachel and I are moving in together on Wednesday! Very exciting times. I'm finally doing something I've been trying to do for a looooong time. Moving on. I'm so so so excited I just CANNOT contain my excitement oh my god
December 27th- the day they go home .Joshua's POV
"Rachel! We've Gotta go!" I call. "Josh I need to talk to you about that." She replies. I walk upstairs, confused. "What is it?" I ask. "I've been thinking..and I've made a decision." She says. I look at her, puzzled. "What....kinda decision?" I ask. "I'm not going back to la. I'm staying here in Ireland. To be with my family. Will you stay too?" She says. "WHAT? Rach, I can't stay. I have to go back to America. My family are there. I'm sorry." I say, tearing up. I grab her hands. "We're gonna have to part. But...it doesn't mean I don't love and adore you. I'll never forget you, Rachel McCarthy. I'll love you forever, my dear." I say, bursting into tears. ShE does too. "I wish you had told me before." I say. "JOSH I HAD TO THINK." She says. "I know, but now I'm going back alone. I'm alone in the world. Thanks Rachel." I say, my body tensing up with rage, yet trying not to show it. "I Gotta go.  Bye my Irish love. You're staying here, but...I'll..." I say. "You'll what?" She replies with a hopeful tone in her voice. "I'll wait for you. No matter how long it takes." I say, collapsing on my knees, holding her hands. "Josh, I didn't know you loved me like that. If you decide you'll come here, I'll be here. Always. You know, I always wanted to be Rachel Evans. Maybe...it wasn't meant to be." She says. "RACHEL IT WAS MEANT TO BE!! When we got back, I was gonna take you to the skyline in New York. RACHEL I WAS GONNA PROPOSE TO YOU!" I shout, still with hot tears of rage, disappointment, and heartbreak. "I have to go. I love you Rachel, forever and always." I say, in between tears. I pick up my bandana backpack, my bntp suitcase and walk out her bedroom door. "JOSH!" She calls. I drop my bands and go back into her room. "I love you. Always." She smiles, still crying. "Come here." I say. We hug for ten minutes. And we kissed for a longgggg time. I didn't want it to end. "You're a beautiful girl. You'll probably find someone better than me." I say crying again. "Never. Never ever could I find someone better than you. I'll wait for you once you wait for me too. We'll find our way back to each other. I promise." She replies. Honestly, I trust her. That made me feel a lot more hopeful when she was. "I love you. I don't. I don't wanna let you go." I say. "I'll see you soon." She says. "Can't wait." I reply. "Love you." She says. "Love you more than anything." I say. "I guess...you really have to go this time"she says. "Yeah. See you soon I hope. Text and call everyday?" I ask. "Obviously." She replies. We kiss and hug for maybe the last ever time. "Bye love." She says. "Bye my dear."I reply. I walk out the door and say goodbye to Rachel's family, who over the days, I've come to love. I drive off. "Bye Ireland. It's been great." I say. I take the ferry where you can take your car. Hours later, I arrive home. For the whole journey from Ireland back to America, I cried and looked at pictures of me and Rachel. I think about her. I put on my earphones and listen to private vlogs I made on my phone of us together in Ireland. And in her house in America, and in my house, I'm Taco Bell, in target, in chipotle, in Starbucks, in kfc, in McDonalds. We got a lot of take out. I love her so much. Now that I had to leave her, I think of her again. The other HER. Colleen. I don't want to see her again. I can't listen to her begging for my forgiveness, I love her but I just can't take it. I have Rachel now. She's still my girlfriend. And she'll be back. Even if she isn't. I'll be back to her. I arrived to my house again. It seems a long time. I say hey to shadow, still not taking him out of his cage. I just sit at my kitchen table. And cry. I then realise I have to, but can't, go on without her.

Authors note: hi y'all! It's currently St. Stephen's Day (or Boxing Day) I hope u had a fun Christmas! This is my longest EVER chapter! Hope you enjoyed! It was really sad for Josh. Do u have any ideas of what might happen next? Or ideas for me to make a storyline with? Id love to hear from you! I love you all so much, -Katie 😘😘