Im sorry I haven't written in awhile. I've just been going through a lot and I hope y'all can understand. This poem is the soul of my writing, this is the one I poured my heart out into. I've been dreading writing this, because this is just me.
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about me
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it's hard to keep trying
when he's going around with another
im sorry to say this
but you never wanted a forever
you say you love me
but then you lie
you leave me in tears
without a try
im sorry im done trying
and what should I do
of course sit around and wait for you
while you go, flirting through them all
im hurt by the words
you haven't spoken at all
im now getting better
this society is killing me
I want you forever
but you lost this awhile
whatever you do
let the next one off easy
there's no way you'll miss me
it'll only took 4 months
for your next girl to diss me
what is my luck
but the minute you forgave me
you started to leave me
I left without words
and your heart was still mine
you threw my heart away a little at a time
I now begin to wonder, where does it lie?
in the garbage can beneath your home
what is the time
I waited for the time
where you'll call me yours
I swear you might've drifted away
the day you left my words
I can't believe you broke my heart
the day you said you loved me
but then you go and
run around with her
and it's really sorta crazy
what do you want me to do
hold onto you forever
just to be abused?
my heart is shattered
and I don't know if it's yours
don't you know you changed me?
I wish you could've apologized
that would've saved us at the many
I miss you in many ways
I swear I might be crazy
here I lay in this bottomless pit
without no swallow
im dying alone
in this wasteland below
and there's no you to save me
kill all my sorrows
and leave me tomorrow
I'll kill to be in high school
you'll walk right past me
like nothing at all
how shall you do this
leave me alone
and never come home?
I wonder if you loathe me
my thoughts so often cloud my mind
I can't think straight no more
there isn't a day where I don't think about you
none, none at all
and here all this is
hoping you'd see me
and here that I lie
hoping I'll die
you'll never come back and need me
so here is my words
the ones that went through to you
in a world filled with hurt
and my feelings thrown to ash
you were the one..
to make me love you.
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I finally did it.
-caitlin rose
YOU ARE READING
some anti social girl
PoesíaOh wow, something about myself. Am I a deep person? Yes. I write in ways no one will ever understand. These are my poems. The way I express myself. Through the words of depression and sadness. Hell I'd turn back now. Or just stay. Read my life story...
