Synyster Gates And M. Shadows FanFic.

Chapter 5

Syn's Pov

"Brian don't get mad at me for asking but can I see your scars on your wrists?" Johnny asked. I looked up to the short man nodding slowly. Wearily, why would he want to see my cuts and scars? I mean they're gross. I pulled all my bracelets off, holding out my wrists, showing the boys my horrible looking scars and cuts. I looked down to my wrists in disgust, how can something that feels so good, make me look so nasty.

Zacky and Johnny both gasped, clasping their hands over their mouths. Matt on the other hand just looked at me like he was about to cry. Great now I'm making the love of my life cry, and my best friends disgusted, great job Brian very fucking smart. "Please don't cry, please." I said bringing my hand up to wipe away the tears that were making their way down Matt's cheek. "Can... Can I touch them? I mean not to be weird." Johnny asked, I just held out my wrists again my scars open for everyone to see, before Johnny could reach my wrists, Matt's fingers were already running over the angry cuts and scars.

"Why didn't you tell me Bri you tell me everything. I mean I was the first one to know that you were in love with Matt. Why didn't you just tell me I could've helped." Zacky asked. I could tell by the tone of his voice felt hurt that I, one of his best friends was keeping a secret this big from him. But what was I suppose to do walk up to him and be like 'Oh hey Zacky I'm addicted to mutilating my arm want to see?' No it just doesn't work like that.

"Wait, Zacky knew you liked me? Why didn't you tell me I mean I'm not a complete dick." Matt said angrily, retracting his fingers from my wrist, crossing his arms. Damn it can I do anything right? "Yeah, course I knew. I found him crying one day after you, di-" I glared at Zacky silently telling him to shut the hell up. If he finishes that sentence I know Matt will think that it's his fault. Which it isn't, none of this is his fault, it's my fault for being so stupid, and clingy.

"After I what? What did I do that day that made you cry?" Matt asked with tears streaming down his face, it takes a lot to make me cry which, is probably why Matt seems so anxious to know. The look that was swimming around his eyes was heart breaking. "No Matt, please don't be mad. It was just a silly reason please just forget it. I over reacted that night, I was just being overly clingy." I pleaded, which was true I shouldn't have reacted like that, that night.

"No Bri please just tell me, I want to know." And as much as I didn't want to tell Matt I knew I had to, I just sighed and said. "It was that day you ditched me for some girl. But please don't feel bad it's over with now. I know we both have the same feelings for each other, so none of that matters anymore." I said hugging Matt tightly, maybe if I hug him long enough he really will just forget it.

"Guys can you go to dining room please." Matt asked the boys and they were both gone in a matter of seconds. Oh god what's Matt up to now, great I'm already being broken up with, and we aren't even dating yet. Before I could ask why he wanted the boys to leave, Matt's lips were on mine.

I kissed him back passionately. I've been waiting since high school for this day, to happen. To finally be able to kiss Matt and it's actually happening. So I'm going to make the most of this kiss, because this probably won't happen again. I pushed Matt down on the bed so he was laying flat on his back. I moved up to straddle him my legs on either side of him. I attached our lips once again, running my tongue acrossed his bottom lip asking for an entrance, immediately he opened up giving me access to the most beautiful mouth in the world.

I slipped my tongue in his mouth, letting it slide against his sweetly, caressing it carefully. I pulled away moving my lips down to his neck, biting and sucking on his smooth skin, making sure to leave a deep purple love bite. I ran my tongue over the now bruised skin to sooth, the burning skin. I took the chance of my life, grinding my now fully hardened length down on his moaning softly, into his neck. This has to be the best time of my life...