To All The Boys I've Loved Before (My Edition)

Dear JA...

Dear JA,

It all started in the first grade. We sat at the same table in Ms V's class and I was instantly in 'love'. You had my heart for three years. All three years, we were in the same class and it made not expressing my little feelings hard. Especially when you were the ladies man of third grade. When you first dated K, it broke my heart. You guys broke up soon after but then you dated D. It was just one girl after the other and I was never one of them.

I remember I wrote you a love letter with the help of the boy who sat next to me in class. He was a good friend. You laughed at it because I had including something about you liking a girl you obvious weren't into. You totally glossed over the fact that I was admitting my feelings for you.

You sat in front of me in french class in third grade. We talked a lot and always got in trouble for it. I don't remember our teacher's name, but one day she asked us to stop 'flirting' and I was honored at the thought that you were flirting with me.

Then one day T told you I liked you. To this day, I still have no idea how she found out. But she told you and I was humiliated. I asked my best friend R to tell you I liked you even though you already knew. What can I say, I was crazy and I thought I was in love with you.

You didn't reciprocate the feelings. I kept bugging you in french class the next day asking for stupid things like a pencil, then paper, what the teacher just said, blah blah blah. You cooperated, which was nice, but didn't talk to me anymore. We hardly talked the rest of the year and I eventually got over you.

We later became somewhat of friends in 7th and 8th grade. I don't know where you are now or what you are doing, but I don't care as much. I hope you are okay, but I don't want to be your friend anymore or your girlfriend and that's okay.

Sincerely,

Lynn