I'm sorry [Kendall Jenner]

10: come back

10

"Hello, this is Val, if you're listening to this there's a chance I'm busy, call again I don't call back, ever"

Her beautiful voice echoed through my ears finding the way to my brain

"Answer me please" I whispered 

"KENDALL!" Martin, our runway director called

I jogged to him; his stern look gave me chills

"Yes, Martin?" I asked

"I need you focus dear" he said a little bit angry "leave your phone out of this room, please" he said and turned around

"I can't leave my phone" I told Gigi

"I know, just don't make phone calls during his ours" she said and we got back to rehearsal

"OKAY GIRLS, 1, 2,3,4,5 KENDALL, GIGI, STELLA, I LOVE IT..." the music was too loud

"NO NO, DON'T SMILE, THIS IS SERIOUS!" he started yelling nonsense

"But is perfect" Marc entered the room looking fresh and elegant

"Mr. Jacobs!" Martin looked surprised

"Everything is fine girls, go home, I think is enough for today" he said, I kissed his cheek on my way out

"Martin is annoying" Gigi rolled her eyes as we got into her car

"Awful" I responded with the same tone

The car went silent, as memories flooded through me. Today was a rather good day, this event kept me busy so the only time where I could actually be sad was at night, when everything hit me.

"Bella is asking me to pick her up, do you want to go to get lunch?" she asked me

"Sure" I answered as I looked outside the window to the busy streets, a light blonde hair called my attention.

It was her

"STOP!" I yelled and Gigi hit the brakes so fast that my body bumped against the car dashboard

The car behind yelled at us as he went by our side. I got down the car as fast as I could, Gigi running behind me.

"HEY!" I yelled to the blonde but she kept walking

"HEEEEEY!" I yelled again, a few heads turning recognizing me

"Oh my God is Kendal!" a group of teenagers yelled mobbing me, in a couple of seconds I was trapped between seas of people.

"GIGI!" another girl screamed "OH MY GOD!"

Gigi smiled trying to get through saying a lots of "excuse me"

But they weren't moving

I was losing my mind, the oxygen wasn't reaching my lungs

"Please, excuse me" I tried again

"HEY GUYS PLEASE MOVE!" a deep voice yelled, my legs started giving out, a pair of strong arms grabbed me. Suddenly I was in Gigi's car and a guy closing the door as he grabbed Gigi too.

I was safe, whoever said teenagers weren't dangerous obviously had never been moved by dozens of them. The guy stood in the middle of the street as Gigi speeded up.

"What the hell Kendall!?" she said as soon as were out of shock

"I saw her" I said trying my best not to cry

She looked at me with pure confusion

"Val? You saw Val?" she sounded incredulous

"I did" I whimpered, tears now rolling freely down my face "She was there Gigi, I swear"

I tried my best to stop crying but failed so bad

Gigi didn't say a word; she just drove until we got to where Bella was.

"Hi guys!" she said cheerfully but Gigi pursed her lips signaling that I wasn't really in a good mood

"Hi baby" I smiled weakly "Sorry Gi, can you drop me at my place? Please" I asked

"I can't leave you like this, you're a mess" she said sternly

"I'll be fine" I lied; I needed liquor and sleeping pills or maybe just a hot shower. She dropped me in front of my house but not before asking at least 400 times if I was okay with being by myself.

Val would always say: "Home is wherever you are" now I know my home had a meaning when she was here. I took her for granted and I lost the meaning of all.

"I need vodka" I mumbled searching for it, I took the orange juice and mixed with the transparent liquor "Hello" I chugged it all in one swift motion

The bottle was empty lying on the counter, there was no juice and of course Val was there.

"Valiiiieeee!" I slurred her name

"Oh baby, where are you?" I cried looking at her figure

She smiled like she always did when she saw me shitfaced

"I miss you" I said trying to get her to speak "I'm sorry, for saying I was dating Rakim and for being such an awful girlfriend, I wanted everything with you. The kids, the dog, the cat, Sunday mornings in pajamas, I wanted that I swear"

I sat on my couch, that expensive piece of shit. Why did I need all of this?! If the person that gave a meaning to this wasn't here

"I miss you Val" I cried harder "Please come back to me, hold me, I need you"

She sat next to me and pointed at the keys on the coffee table. I had a key set of her apartment.

"I don't know if this is the real you, Valentina" she scrunched her nose "Val" she smiled "but I'm sorry, I'm so sorry"

She hugged me and I could feel her warmth

"I'm saying I'm fucking worried!" Hailey spoke "look at that, she's drunk again" her steps sounded harshly against my wooden floor

"Kenny" Cara's soft voice spoke

"I saw her" I cried as she held me "I saw her walking on the street and..." I couldn't speak because I was crying so hard

"Help me" I begged

"She left a text, do you remember that time when I changed all of her contacts to Kendall so she had to call you?" she asked

Of course, if it wasn't for that she would never had the courage to ask me out

"I forgot to change my name back and she sent a text"

The screen light up "move on, I'm sorry, I love you"