My Special Snowflake (updates monthly)

Chapter 4

4:30 refused to come fast enough.

I spent the rest of the morning flopped in the bed and staring at the ceiling, trying not to think about anything, but of course that's when you think the most.  I absent mindedly ran my fingers over my cuts over and over again, each time causing a stinging sensation to my new wounds.  I tried to avoid Caleb's texts for the few hours I had at home, but I quickly failed.  I lifted the phone above my head so that I could see the screen and hesitantly opened the messages.  I immediately regretted it.

Caleb: Marie?  Are you okay?  Talk to me.

Caleb: Hello?  Are you even listening to me?

Caleb: Fine, be this way.  Fuck you too.

I took a deep breath, trying to clear my mind and remind myself that he didn't matter anymore, he wasn't my boyfriend, he didn't matter.  When I exhaled my breath was shaky and I could feel the tears rimming my shut eyes.  I shook my head.  No, I would not cry.  I would not give him the satisfaction.  I would not let him make me cry.  Or I could ditch everything I wanted out the window.  Through my tears I looked at the "reply" button and immediately pressed it.

Marie: I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you, I just didn't see them.  I'm sorry.

With that I set my phone down and planned on not touching it until I had to leave.  It was useless.  A few minutes later it buzzed, but with a message from Snapchat.  Caleb didn't have Snapchat, so I knew it wasn't him.  Cautiously I opened the message to see a picture of Andy's face staring back at me with one of his signature silly face with a caption saying, "Ready for tonight?"  I sighed and brushed the tears away from my face with the back of my hand.  I opened up the message part and just sent him a text, not wanting him to see my tears.

Marie: Yeah, need some time to not think about him...

Andy: Yikes, what's up?

Marie: Broke up, fought, ended up the same way it always does, now he's angry and I've apologized to him more than I can count.

Andy: I'm sorry, but you ARE better off without him.

Marie:  I know, I know, I just, I still can't help but feel bad about it.  I should have broken up with him months ago because I didn't I only hurt him.

Andy: Doesn't matter, he's not a big part of your life now.

Andy: You cover your cuts?

Marie: No...

Marie: My mom would get suspicious.

Andy: You need too.  Get to Jo's house a little bit early, I can cover them while she helps her moms get ready and before everyone else arrives.

Marie: Thank you.  I don't know what I'd do without you Andy.

Andy: No problem, what are friends for? ;) <3 Stay strong.

Marie: Will do. :) <3

By the time we had stopped texting it was 3:30 and I had less than an hour until we had to leave.  Sighing I rolled over and started at the ceiling, not wanting to do anything.  I was doing just fine watching a ladybug on its journey across the ceiling towards the wall, but ten minutes into my bliss my mom knocked on the door.

"You're good."  I made sure that my cheeks had dried before mom opened the door slowly and poked her head in.

"You okay?  You didn't eat lunch and you've been hiding in this room all day."  I shrugged.

"I didn't even realize, guess I wasn't hungry.  Sorry to worry you mom."  I pushed myself up so that I was sitting and I could look at her.

"Well maybe you should eat something before heading over.  We'll be leaving in about forty five minutes.'

"Actually mom, Jo asked if I could come a little early to help her set things up, if that's okay with you."

"Of course.  In that case we'll be leaving in about a half hour.  And don't forget to get dressed, you've been in those pajamas all day, silly goose.  Your booty shorts are clean, and sitting on the couch if you want to wear those, I know you normally do."  I smiled as she left, but as soon as her prying eyes had gone, I dropped it.  I picked up my phone to let Jo know that I would be coming a little bit early.

Marie: Hey, coming a bit early, is that okay?

Jo: Yeah, Andy said he was too and told me that you were as well.  Already let my moms know about it.  Ya'll okay?

Marie: Yeah it's fine, we just need to talk.  Mind if we talk in your bedroom while you get set up?

Jo: No problem, but if you need something, I'm here, okay?

Marie: I know.  Thank you.

Jo: No problem, see you soon!

I tossed my phone on my bed and slid until my feet touched the floor.  I really didn't want to wear my short shorts, but now that mom mentioned it I had to.  Not wearing them would send off a weird vibe to her.  I headed down the stairs and sure enough, my light blue one were sitting on the couch.  on the other hand sitting right next to them was my long, off white, short sleeved sweater cardigan.  Smiling I grabbed both of those.  If my shorts decided to creep up as they sometimes did, the sweater might hide it.  I hurried back upstairs and started to change.  I picked out a loose army green tank top to go under the sweater and I slipped on my sandals.

I paused for a moment before continuing to get ready.  Seven of my cuts were on my arms which was fully exposed.  Now the cuts on my thigh were worse, but it was still possible that someone would see, even if Andy covered them, someone would question it.  I shrugged it of.  Andy would think of something.  He always did.

I grabbed my phone and stuck it in my back pocket.  I went to look at myself in the mirror but I quickly decided against it.  I turned to turn out my light, but then rushed back to grab the razor from it's hiding spot and slipped it between my phone and my lightning phone case.  With one last look over the room to see if I forgot anything, I left ready for a night to forget about him, or at least I hoped.

A/N: Hello hello! I'm sorry I haven't updated in months. School just got way too busy for me and I couldn't keep up. I have decided to change my updates to monthly, that way it would be easier for me to keep up with the updates once the school year kicks back up.

These updates will always be on the second Thursday of the month from here on out. I hope you guys understand and won't be too mad at me. If you're interested, I'm entering a story in the Wattys2017 called Beware the Ides of March. Feel free to check it out!

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