Dear my future boyfriend,
I just wanted to apologise in advance for the fact that i usually can't sleep until about 3 or 4 in the morning and I often just lay awake staring at the ceiling and a lot of the time, I'll want to cry but I won't.
Instead I'll try to hide it with a smile that looks anything but real and I'll insist that I am all good when I'm really not.
You see, I have quite a temper which can be triggered by the smallest things, I think o got it from my father, he pushed my mother into a wall once, I don't want to talk too much I about that.
I try to be patient, I think I've learnt from my own mistakes but sometimes I feel like I might explode in anger and rage and I might even scream sometimes but I don't want you to be afraid, so please don't listen to the words that come spilling from me and please, please try to stop me before it's too late.
Most of all, I hope you won't get annoyed and fed up with me from time to time, and I won't be able to help that I think you're lying sometimes.
I'm scared to death you'll never be able to love me quite as much as I love you, you see, I fall to hard and loving someone who left you is something I can't bear ever again. It's happened so often I've started to lose faith.
But please, rest assured that I will love you more than anyone would've before and I will try my hardest the same is true for you.
