Forsaken [MxM]

Chapter 6: The Black Wolf

Ivan

"Next time you deside to jerk off, make sure I'm not in the house." His words reverberated in my head, his rough yet sultry voice enough to boil my blood. "Oh, and try not being so loud, these walls aren't exactly sound proof."

My stomach flip flopped, my chest feeling like it was slowly being crushed as the weight of it all came crashing down on me. Dear Goddess, why did he have to hear me? Why did I even do it in the first place- why couldn't I control myself like a normal person?!

Because you knew if you didn't 'take care of it' you would have ended up going into Thorin's room and doing some things that would have been absolutely suicidal. Besides, this isn't any normal situation, this is your mate. Your mate who you have been waiting for, for years. I could practically hear Dominic reassure me, like he always does.

But still, I felt like I was in the wrong. "And it wasn't wrong to practically kidnap him? Boy, you have some fucked up morals." I said, shaking my head and falling back onto my bed.

I didn't want to do it. I don't want to force him to stay when it's so obvious he wants to leave, but how can I just let him go? I've been waiting for years for him to show up, and now that he's here I can't imagine life without him. I can't just let him go. . . I love him too much.

And right now, I doubt he has a very high opinion of you. Kidnapping him and then jacking off in the next room, he's lucky to have you. I grabbed fistfulls of hair and tugged softly, swearing under my breath.

But I needed to face facts, right now, Thorin hates me. He hasn't told me, but he doesn't even need to say it out loud, it's plain to see. But how can I blame him? I've done nothing to earn his love, not a thing. I shot up in bed, "That's it." I nearly cried out, but was able to silence myself that minute.

As Thorin had said, the walls weren't exactly sound proof, I didn't need him hearing me talking to myself. He'd probably think I'd lost my mind. "What's it?" Legion asked, his sudden question shocked me.

After all these years, he's finally talking to me. I figured he'd gone mute. Legion rolled his eyes at my thought, while waiting patiently for an answer. "I'm going to earn his love. I will stop at nothing to show him how much he means to me. How much I love him. And maybe, he'll learn to love me too." Legion was silent, and I assumed he had went back to his hermit ways when he said, "Couldn't we just slam him into the nearest wall and fuck him?"

"Legion, what the hell!?" I gasped, even though his words had send a shock of raw need through me like a blast of lightning. "I'm kidding. . . partially. Do it your way, but you got to admit, it is tempting." He offered me a wolfish grim before retreating into the subconscious of my mind, leaving me flabbergasted.

Alright, so my wolf is apparently as horny as a sex starved convict, am I getting this right? Great, just perfect, because that will help me control myself around Thorin.

It's not like I was already fighting off fantasies about throwing him against the nearest surface and having my way with him, now I had Legion whispering naughty little things in my head like the devil on my shoulder. Excellent. Shaking away Legion's little . . . imagery, I stood and began to pace.

What to do? Where do I start? If I was going to win Thorin's heart, I needed to know how. I needed a first step, nothing so big it would scare him away, but more of a peace offering of sorts.