Innocent

Eight

I sat in Regina's class, leaning against my hand on the desk and my other hand was on my stomach. I'm so fucking nauseous. I stayed with Regina and Henry last night.

This morning, i showered and when Regina asked if she could shower with me, i had to lie and tell her i was on my period so she wouldn't question why she couldn't. It was so embarrassing.

I made sure the shower was on high so i could throw up without Regina hearing me. That's right, i'm still sick. And suddenly... my mouth started watering. I quickly got up and rushed down the risers, causing Regina to stop her lecture.

"Ms. Swan, What on-" i ran straight out of the classroom, totally missing her question and i went to the bathroom down the hall. As soon as i went in, i went to the closest stall, basically collapsed to the floor over the toilet and started throwing up.

After a few minutes, i stopped a little and i groaned before pulling my hair into a messy bun. Then i started throwing up again. Fuck.

I heard the bathroom door open and it was then that i realized i had left the stall door open. "Oh, Emma." Regina said and walked in the stall, squatting down behind me and she started rubbing my back.

When i finally stopped, i collapsed back in her arms and she held on tight to me. There are tears flowing down my cheeks and my stomach hurts so bad. "Shh baby it's okay." She said softly as a sob ripped from my throat.

"I just feel so gross. I feel horrible." I sobbed and she held me close. "My love, why didn't you tell me? i would've stayed home with you to take care of you." She said and i just continued crying.

"Is that why you wouldn't let me shower with you?" She asked and i nodded. And suddenly, the tears were stopped coming and i wiped them away. We stood up and went to the sinks after flushing.

"Why didn't you tell me you were sick? You don't have to lie to me." She said and i snapped. "Because you fucking forced me to come over last night and then you made me stay over. I didn't want to get either of you sick but noooo i had to come over. I couldn't just fucking stay in bed." I spat angrily and her eyebrows furrowed together.

"Are you... mad at me?" She asked and i groaned. Then i was sad again. I sniffled and shook my head. "I'm sorry." i whispered as my tears came back and she looked totally confused. She pulled me into her arms and i sobbed against her shoulder. I don't even know why i'm crying.

She doesn't either and yet, here she is, soothing all my sobs away. "Fuck. I don't deserve you." I sobbed and she held me close. "Yes you do baby. You deserve me and i deserve you. Okay? We're not splitting up." She said and i nodded as i pulled away, a large smile on my face.

She looked at me funnily and i bit my lip. "Sorry i'm being like.. totally moody today. I don't know why i'm having these mood swings." I mumbled. She bit her lip.

"Do i look like i'm gaining weight?" I asked as i looked at myself in the mirror, lifting my shirt to see a bump. My eyes widened and i felt like i was going to pass out.

"Emma.." Regina said. oh fuck. I bolted. I took off running from the bathroom and left the english building, going back to my apartment. As soon as i got there, i went to my room and collapsed in my bed.

Sobs ripped my body apart and i buried my face in my pillows. Fuck. You're such an idiot, Swan. She's going to leave you. You can't raise a fucking baby on your own.

After a few minutes, i heard footsteps in the apartment and i figured it was just Ruby or Belle. Boy was i wrong. "Hey." I looked up to see Regina standing in the doorway to my room and my tears came back.

She walked into my room and closed the door behind her before coming in and sitting on my bed. "Why'd you take off like that?" She asked softly. She didn't see it. Fuck. Think quick. Okay.

"I just saw that i had gained a little weight and i got scared so i ran." I said and she furrowed her eyebrows "You got scared because you gained some weight?" She asked and i shrugged.

"I've just always really prided myself on my athletic body." I mumbled and she sighed. "So you want me to believe that your sobbing and mood swings are because you gained some weight." She said and sounded annoyed.

"Well that's what it is." i snapped and crossed my arms over my chest. "No it's not and you damn well know it." she said, clinching her jaw.

"Don't fucking talk to me like that!" I shouted and i stood up, moving to stand in front of her. "Do not yell at me." She said in a tone of forced calmness. "No. I'm going to fucking yell at you if i want to! If you think you fucking know me and my body so well, please. Tell me. What is it?" I shouted angrily, talking with my hands.

She looked angry. But she kept her mouth shut. "Are you done being a crazy fucking bitch now?" I said angrily and she smacked me across the face. I gasped from shock and brought my hand up to my cheek to look at her.

"Don't you dare call me the crazy fucking bitch." She seethed before turning on her heel, leaving my room and then the apartment, slamming the door behind her. My breathing hitched as more tears came to my eyes but i knew that these had nothing to do with what's growing in me.

I totally fucked up and i have no idea how to fix it.

There is a house built out of stone
Wooden floors, walls and window sills
Tables and chairs worn by all of the dust
This is a place where I don't feel alone
This is a place where I feel at home.

And I built a home
for you
for me

Until it disappeared
from me
from you

And now, it's time to leave and turn to dust........

Out in the garden where we planted the seeds
There is a tree as old as me
Branches were sewn by the color of green
Ground had arose and passed its knees

By the cracks of the skin I climbed to the top
I climbed the tree to see the world
When the gusts came around to blow me down
Held on as tightly as you held on me
Held on as tightly as you held on me......

And I built a home
for you
for me

Until it disappeared
from me
from you

And now, it's time to leave and turn to dust...

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Okay guys here.
It's kinda short but this is where the drama starts.
With everyone.
Also, i left it on a bad cliffhanger because that's what my babe did and this is payback 😇
-Logan