College

Chapter 15

Hey guys! Welcome to chapter 15. Thank you for sticking with my book!

This chapter is dedicated to:

XthatONEchicX

Why? 

She is an awesome writer! My favorite book of hers is roommates. I actually got inspired to write this book because of hers. So thank you!

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I woke up shivering. I looked at my arms and noticed they were covered in goosebumps. Freezing, I pulled the blanket up onto me, then realized there was no blanket to pull up. I looked around and saw Josh wrapped up in the blanket. I also realized that I was naked. That was a big give away.

I lifted my head, but instantly regretted it. A pounding started beating inside my head. It felt like my brain was trying to escape. "Oh my god," I thought to myself. "Did I just, sleep...with Josh?" Just the thought of it sent me gagging. "No, no, no, no, no. I promised myself no boys! And of all boys, Josh? The pervert who slapped my butt and who I walked in on making out with another girl, the guy who calls me dude????" 

I felt butterflies in my stomach, realizing what I had just done. I just lost my virginity, while I was drunk. 

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Looking over and checking the time, I realized it was only 6:30, which meant I still had time to get ready for classes." I just need to move past this and just leave it." I kept telling myself this, but a part of me knew I wouldn't be able to forget it.

I got up from the bed as slowly as possible. One because, if I moved to fast then my head started pounding and 2, I did not want to wake Josh. But it didn't work. Even the slightest movement sent my head aching and Josh groaned and woke up anyways.

"Oh, hey." He said groggily, a smirk spreading on his face.

"Don't 'hey' me! You took advantage of me! What the hell? I was drunk, I don't even remember last night! You better tell me that you were drunk too or else this could be called sexual harrasement! Do you realize that I lost my virginity to you! My first time was while I was drunk with some stupid guy who just happened to like my butt and was like, 'Oh, she's drunk, I might as well just do her.' I told you before! I am not one of your little fuck buddies! And then on top of that, you make me feel horrible about myself, because now I have to explain to my best friend that I'm not a virgin anymore. How am I supposed to live with you for 4 years after this? Huh?" While I was ranting, I didn't realize that tears started to spill out of my eyes. I cry very easily and this was definitley one of those moments were the tears just keep coming and theres no way to stop them

I left Josh with a dumbfounded look and stopped off to the bathroom. Locking the door behind me. Once inside, I let myself slide down the door. I pulled my knees up and put my head down, sobbing. I couldn't believe what I had just done. This was all my fault. I told myself and my family that college was for studying and I promised that I would stay away from alchohal and parties and all that crap. But I had failed. I had failed miserably and now I was stuck living with some boy who took my virginity. Great, just great. Exactly how I wanted to start of my college career. On top of that, I had to go to class today, or else there would just be even more piles of work to catch up on. But now I have to go looking like a zombie who'd been up crying all night.

I closed my eyes and sat and cried in silence. Josh must've heard my quiet sobs because he came up to the door and tried to jiggle the knob.