La Dreams (Panic Attack Sequel)

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   I sat up and instantly regretted it. Pain ran through my stomach and I remember that I had surgery. That's all I remember though. I don't remember waking up, leaving the hospital, going back to sleep. I was just sitting up in bed thinking when Grayson woke up.
   "Babe you good?" He asked me while resting a hand on my back. I nodded and put my hand to my.side.
   "Yeah it just hurts." He nodded and got up. He was just wearing boxers and I about pissed myself laughing. They had tacos all over them. He turned and looked at me.
   "Would you rather me go naked?" He asked giving me a dirty look.
   "Yeah. I love Naked juice. Its better than the other stuff. Blueberry please" I said just because I knew it would piss him off. He rolled his eyes and left the room. He came back shortly with Naked Blueberry juice and some pain medicine.
   "Ogmygosh Grayson. Your so sweet you did get me juice." I said reaching up to hug him. He didn't hug back or smile though and it caught me off guard. I took the pills without mentioning it and then he sat on the bed looking out my window. I had a balcony that overlooked the city of Los Angeles. It was really pretty but sometimes if you started out the window long enough it could depress you.
   "Grayson are you okay." I asked putting my hand on his back and taking my turn to comfort him. He turned around and grabbed me by the shoulder quickly and scaring the crap out of me.
   "Kylee listen. I'm leaving for tour tomorrow and I still want you to come. The doctor thinks it's a terrible idea but I can't do it without you and I know I can take good care of you. Even when I'm not their Ari will be there so everything will be fine. I know that Dr. Woods is a doctor and I should take his advice but I need you to be there too. Kylee I love you. Please come." He said in a rush. I tried to say something but I knew it wouldn't come out right so I nodded.
"Thanks so much. I love you." He said and pulled me in for a hug. I hugged back but I still knew there was something bothering him.
   "Grayson. What's wrong. I know something else is bothering you." I whispered in his ear. He pulled away from me and stood up.
   "What the hell Kylee. I don't know why you always assume that you know everything about me. God, you can be a bitch sometimes you know that." He yelled knocking over my nightstand. I was taken back.
   "I'm not going with you on tour anymore." I said pulling the covers back over me.
   "Okay. Its not like I ever loved you anyways." He yelled before walking out and slamming the door behind him. I curled up in a call and cried. I didn't know what else to do. Kill myself? He'll no. This was pain I guess I deserved. God knew what he was doing so I guess he wanted me to suffer. That's why I layed there and cried. I was coughing and choking and crying and screaming.
   "Kylee. Let me in." I heard a voice at the door. It was familiar but I didn't know exactly who it belonged to.
   "Go away." I yelled as loud as I could even though it wasn't very loud. My voice was hoarse from crying and screaming for two hours non stop.
   "Its Chris." I heard him say. It was Christian Collins and I guess that's why I gave in.
   "Its unlocked." I said weakly slightly mad at myself for caving. He opened the door and came to sit by me. He pulled me into a hug.
   "Ethan heard everything and called me. He knew you wouldn't want to see him but might still need some company from someone. Sorry it took me so long. I had to cancel some meetings before I could come." He said as he held me in his arms.
   "You cancelled meetings to come be with me?" I asked and he nodded kissing my forehead.
   "I'd do anything for you." He whispered "and if Grayson said he never loved you he's either a dip shit or a liar. Your beautiful and you deserve the best you can get. I guess that's why I never have made a move on you. You deserve better than me." He said as he pulled away and looked down. I put my finger under his chin and lifted his head where he was looking me in the eye.
   "I would so kiss you right now but I haven't brushed my teeth yet." I said looking into his eyes and he laughed. "I think your a great guy Chris and if anything you deserve better than me. Take my word. Your amazing," I finished holding a steady gaze.
   "Really?" He asked and I nodded.
   We talked for hours and watched Netflix when I heard a door slam.
   "Ethan. I'm home." I heard Grayson slur. He was most definitely drunk. I could hear his heavy footsteps to the bedroom door across from mine and heard it open.
   "Oh my God. Grayson." Ethan said and I could just imagine him holding Grayson up.
   "I hurt her and now I'm drunk." He groaned probably stumbling.
   "Obviously." I listened to more of their conversation
   "She hates me and I do actually love her. I just got mad instead of telling her the truth."
   "You didn't tell her?"
   "No. How do you expect me to tell her that she can only stay for half of the tour? It's a year long." My heart sank.
   "So it was worth breaking her heart for. She's hurt. Now she's in there with Chris probably balling her eyes out. Chris loves her to death and I know he was the only one able to comfort her. Honestly man I'm glad you remember everything once your sober because I want you to remember these words. It would take a miracle to get her back. You fucked up real bad this time Gray." I heard Ethan say his voice continuing to get louder and more angry. Chris tightened his grip on my arm and just kissed my forehead over and over again. I looked at him with tears in my eyes.
  "I have to go on that tour." I said and Chris nodded.
   "Okay. Just know that when you go I will always be there if you need to talk. I love you and even if you can never trust him again at least be his friend because there is a lot that you don't know about that goes on tour. He needs you and I'm pretty sure you need him." He said holding me close. I nodded.
   "Thank you Chris." I said before kissing him softly and walking to get drunk Grayson to a bed.

Grayson's POV
I really messed up. I really did love Kylee but I didn't want to tell her that she couldn't be there the whole time. I honestly don't even know why. I love her so much that it hurts. I know that other guys look at her and its scary thinking that she might leave me one day. I need her. Tour really sucks sometimes and I need her. I love the real fans and all but there are the ones that are rude and just there for Ethan. They call me names and tell me to kill myself. I don't even know why because I always have thought of Ethan and I as pretty equal. Apparently not though. It hurts Because I work my ass off to please everyone but it doesn't work. I need Kylee. She is my support system. Without her, Ethan, and Ari I would have already killed myself.

A/N
Hey guys. Sorry its been so long but I was at my aunts house and she has unlimited data on her phone. So guess what? No wifi! I'm know this sucks but I'm also writing another story. Love ya's. Bye!