there's somethings in life that you seem ready for and they'res other things that I might never feel ready for no matter what. And some of the things I feel ready for in the moment are quite truly scary because at the moment you don't think about it but these events could change my life forever. and when I look back and feel that I was ready I truly wasn't . I swear at the moment that I could totally handle it if it goes wrong. but I can't. some of the outcomes are scary.
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I wasn't ready to die today but when I was driving home and this truck that seemed to about come at me from the side I felt for some strange reason ready to get in that crash. I felt ready for us to collide and ready for it to hit my car break the glass and me end up in the hospital. I imagined it on the rest of the car ride home I imagined how I would move from the impact. And now when I think about it i sure wasnt ready for the consequences. I wasn't ready for the possible brain or nerve damage ,the way it could affect my life or my future plans , for all the negative things . I'm not ready for that commitment although you feel ready but when you sit and think about it are you ready for ALL the possible outcomes your decisions could have?
I'm not.
and that's something I've learned I'm not ready to give everything up
#176 everything you do in life either has a negative or positive consequence, choose what you do wisely.
