one month, one secret | chanbaek

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After parking the car and walking some time, we finally arrived.

A little and old looking hut was in front of us and I quickly dragged Baekhyun inside.

"We have to climb up on the roof.", I said while opening a little door on the ceiling. Stairs came down and we went up. I opened a window and pointed at it so he would start to climb.

"Why do you want to climb up there?", he asked me curiously.

"You'll see, just trust me.", I smiled softly at him.

"Whose hut is this even?", he asked while going to the window and carefully climbing up. He was very slow, but I didn't say anything.

"It's mine. When I was a kid, my grandfather built it with me and he always brought me to this hut when I needed to be alone. Nobody knows this place, just me. And now you.", I explained while also trying to climb out of the window.

He just stayed silent and continued to climb.

When we finally reached the roof and were safely on it, I sat down on the middle of it and patted next to me. "Sit down and watch.", I said. He sat down next to me and then we looked to the sky. When we got out of the cinema, it was already getting dark, so now would be the perfect time to see the sunset.

And I guessed right, we had a perfect view and it just looked beautiful. Baekhyun leaned on my shoulder and watched the sky with amazed eyes.

"It's so beautiful.", Baekhyun mumbled.

"Yes, it is.", I answered and looked at him.

At this moment, I started to understand.

I started to understand my feelings.

My feelings for a certain boy called Byun Baekhyun.

"Once, there was a boy.", I started to talk and looked forward again.

Baekhyun looked at me.

"He met another boy, or should I say the other boy forced him to meet him.", I chuckled.

"First, he didn't know what the other boy exactly wanted from him, but he still stayed with that boy.", I looked at Baekhyun, in his eyes.

"After a time, the boy started to realize that he liked the other boy. He didn't just like him, he loved him.", Baekhyun closed his eyes and put his arm around me.

"But there was one secret this boy had. The secret consisted of three simple words the boy couldn't say. He didn't know why, he was confused, scared and more. But there was one thing he knew, he wanted to be together with the other boy forever and make him smile.", I turned to Baekhyun and he opened his eyes again, also starting to look at me.

"But he still can't stay those three words and because of that, he probably won't be able to be on the other boy's side.", I ended the story and pulled Baekhyun closer, to hug him. I held him with all my love.

Slowly I loosened the embrace, looked at his face, stroked his cheek and then kissed him carefully.

I kissed him with all my love.

He put his hands around my neck and my hands went to his back, slowly lifting him to my lap.

The kiss was an innocent one with lots of love in the beginning, but after a while it became a wild one.

My tongue asked for entrance and he allowed it. Our tongues fought for dominance and I won. His hands wandered to my hair and my hair became a mess. My hands got under his shirt and I touched his soft and cold skin. It made me crazy. I wanted to stop the time and make this moment last forever. Baekhyun's hands also wandered to my shirt and it seemed like he wanted to touch my back. It also seemed like he was scared that I wouldn't allow him to touch me. I took his hands while kissing and put them under my shirt on my back, so that he would finally touch me.

But he stopped the kiss right after that.

All that we could hear was our loud breathing.

I looked at Baekhyun and his swollen, pink lips.

"Did I do something wrong?", I whispered.

"No... You didn't do anything wrong. Just... I don't want to do more than that yet.", he said quietly.

After some talking we climbed down and lied down on the bed in the hut. We fell asleep while holding us in our arms, afraid to let go.

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I slowly opened my eyes, seeing sunshine on my skin and a petite boy in my arms.

The month was over.

Our relationship was over.

I didn't really confess to him, but if he wanted to be my boyfriend longer, he would've said it right?

I looked at the pale, fragile boy and stroked his soft cheek. I brushed his hair out of his face and gave him a kiss on his forehead, without waking him up.

"I'm sorry.", I whispered softly and lifted his body.

He wasn't that heavy, so it wasn't a problem.

I held him in my arms, carefully, and brought him to my car.

I layed him down in the backseat and closed the door quietly.

I started to drive and brought him home.

I told his mother that he slept over at mine and said goodbye.

I went home and started to cry.

I cried so many tears.

I called his name.

Byun Baekhyun.

But I didn't know, that I wouldn't see him again.

I didn't know that he would ignore my calls and texts.

I didn't know that he wouldn't contact me.

He slowly vanished from my world.