Love Me ~URBAN

Truth is a Bitch

I watched some more of my show but my brain was all over the place .Everyone was at my house yesterday perfect place to beat my ass and call me out of my name but they didn't.

My brother was home at a odd point he wasn't supposed to be home for another 3 weeks and issy ends up being shot.
I relax my mind a bit and I take a shower and into this set from Victoria Secret I usually just sleep in my bra and panties but I threw on my brothers old white Ck shirt.I got in bed and my eyes just wouldn't shut so I grabbed my phone and was reading Wattpad after 3 hours I was out like a light.

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When I got up I headed straight to the bathroom and I spilled out what was in my stomach into the toliet I flushed the toliet and wiped my mouth and followed that by brushing  my teeth I slid on some sweat pants that were grey and said babygirl on the side I slid on my slides and I went downstairs issy was still in bed even though it's 10:00 AM I was gonna wake her up but she's getting sleep and after last night I  don't blame her in fact thinking about last night I went back upstairs to get my phone and issy was awake she looked at me and the sadness in her eyes just was enough for me to get in the bed with her and start hugging her after 13 minutes of me hugging her and us rocking back and forth I said "My princess what is wrong?".

She smiled at the fact I remembered how she wanted to be a princess so bad when we were younger but then she remembered why she was bruised from head to toe and her smiled drifted from her face she looked at me with tears streaming down her face lost for words she opens her mouth and she says "I -I was on the way home an -and Evan was with me we were walking because he let your brother use his car I took the long way around and we were 2 houses from my house and THEY SHOT EVAN 😭😭I -I started to freak out becuase There was so much blood I .. couldn't find the source Evan looked me in the eyes and he said "don't go to your house run to Re's NOW" I kissed him on his lips and I got up and I started to Track star run to your house I was half way there and I heard a loud POP but I still kept running I got to your house but I went through the back becuase you never keep it locked when you realized I was shot I blacked out and I don't remember anything after that ".

I was crying and my hands are shaking me and issy knew that we could never walk the long way around the block for many reasons so why did she take the long way I know I could've how Evan was and  why did yall get shot but instead I asked "Why did you take the long way ?"She was shivering at the memory in her head.
"I was leaving the meeting becuase I was done with the bullshit they was talking about and That meant it was time for me to go and sense your brother took the car I had no way back but to walk and Evan was still inside counting money so I started to walk by myself I was wondering why the streets were so peaceful but just to be safe I sped up my walk and next thing I knew I was being pulled into a abandoned house I was slammed into a wall and then getting stomped on until my eyes had  shut when I woke up Evan was in front of me and behind him was a body with multiple gun shots in its lifeless body.
I looked down at my white carpet floors and I started to piece it together I got up and I went into the bathroom throwing up again(I have a stomach bug) I couldn't believe all these people in my life would do this I love my father but he is evil for letting them throw their lives away and work for him ...I can't stand people who think my father is a role model and that what he is doing is right It got my mother and baby sister killed but you know what they" were in the way anyway" that's what Margaret says all the time my dad isn't a terrible man but is the worse to be around because he will fuck your life up really quick he was a loving and kind person when I was little he had a great job at this factory and then it shutdown and we moved behind Issy's house I was still happy my mom was still happy and then it was harder for my father to find a job so he turned to selling drugs with Tuckers dad and the local hoe Margaritas mom.

My mom and dad got a divorce and I was going from house to house and my dad was with margaritas mom .well one day me and my brother Orlando we come home and this little girl is sitting on the couch playing with my toys I smacked her and took it back that little girl was Margarita and ever sense her and her dusty crack whore of a mother dislike me the very next day after meeting her me and Orlando went back to our mothers she was 8 months pregnant with my little sister who planned on naming Kayleigh my mother was thinking about getting full custody of all of us and starting over but she was kidnapped and killed that's what my father told me.

I stopped rocking Issy's back and forth I uncrossed my legs and went down stairs I no longer felt sorry for her I started to cook eggs and grits and sausage I cooked her some and I put in on a plate I got her some juice I walked upstairs She was in the bathroom so I just put the food there on the bed and I headed back down the stairs I ate my food in the kitchen just wondering why my father would risk his reputation and empire by letting half of my school run his drugs.
Issy broke my thoughts when I heard her putting the dishes in the sink I hope she doesnt thinks that after I found out she works for my father that im gonna clean up her messes she looked at me with so much sympathy but I looked at her with disgust she knew about my mother I knew about my brother  earning his way through college if thats just a excuse and he's really running the drugs to cuba and france ,getting really upset that he would lie to me tears of rage started to rush down my face I couldnt just let this go I need proof so I didnt even glance back I swiftly existed the kitchen and I carried myself up to my brothers room it was clean and in order something my brother wasn't but a drug dealer was .I started to look in all the familiar places that a mother would search I found pot but thats harmless something he would do about three years for nothing but two blunts after policemen would find that they would ethier call off the search and pin him with that or they could  make the search more broad I searched behind his least favorite posters and there it was I found pounds of drugs and tools and kits it was like a toy isle for kids but instead for drug addicts and abusers I took a picture and then I put everything in order I was done I want answers I desreve the fucking truth.Being in a rush to confront my brother and issy I got to my room and I changed into a plack pair of skinnys a Black low cut neck shirt   and my black PINK jacket  I put on my nike roshes and I washed my face and tied m hair back the house was empty issy tired of me not speaking to her left but I don't care I got my keys I wasnt gonna bring my phone everyone in my contacts all they do is lie and I dont want to hear them I got in the car and went to the closest trap house I parked my car 2 houses down I grabbed my knife out of the glove box I got myself gathered nex thing I knew I jumped the fence to the back yard to the trap house I walked up to the back door and I did my dads knock the door flew open and there my brother stood I smacked him and rushed past him I saw evan with bandages wrapped around him and I saw issy talking to him I quickly walked over to her she looked suprised to see me.

"What are you doing here"When she said that I looked around sense this was the back it was nothing but a couple of crates of money,two desks ,and a couple of couches I was about to snap but instead I said "to get a job" ☺ she looked at me crazy but I was dead serious I wouldn't even have to beg or Plead to my father for a job working in a trap house becuase before my mother passed away my father when I would be with him on weekends he would train me and my brother even though we were really young it came in handy I can keep up books and connections also  fight anyone and I may get bullied and I have got jumped but my father always says "if they messing with you it ain't worth it but if they threatening your life beat they ass until they see lines " I always took that advice and I have never been in a fight.I avoided her stairs and glares and questions about why I would want a job with my father but truly I didnt even know why I just thought loosing my morales wasn't a bad idea I have nothing left to live for besides my brother but sense he puts himself in danger also so I have no one or anything I was tired of waiting on my father I went into the main part of the trap house where they would make it I passed that and I went down a hallway to his office I knocked twice no response I knocked like I was the police I heard a gun cock getting worried I said dad can I come in I heard papers move and then a sigh behind that was a yes I walked in and their he was sitting there looking lost and sick with guilt I hated seeing my father like this I sat down trying not to look at him asking for a job in the trap wasnt even on my mind finding a way to help my father out of this was my concern.
About to ask what is wrong he pushes himself up and sits in the chair next to me "I lied to you about something and if you cant forgive me I understand but just realize we all do things out of anger,regret,and sometimes we can do bad things out of happiness".I looked at im confused becuase my father has always told me the truth or just hasnt told me about something so whatever this is must really be a enormouse deal he took a deep breath and looked me dead in my eyes and said

To be continued ......