She always stood there with a cup of coffee, staring with her deep blue eyes at the never ending sky ; but that night was different she heard him crying, crying in agony ! Even though he just sat there silently !! She Curiously glimpsed at him, but the night was too dark to see his face, specially that he was sitting in the corner , the thought of leaving crossed her mind but her curiosity won over her logic ,so without thinking she just asked him.
( why are you crying ?! )
"I am not"..He said denying ..
(Is that so ?!) She replied ready to leave, not expecting his words to tear down the silence, he gently whispered as if he was talking to himself..
" No one see me ! ..even though i am there ! I kept trying..i kept believing that in the end my hard working will be rewarded.. But You see..i am like the darkness..(said while reaching his hand to the sky) And They only like the light !! All of them are captivated by the beauty of the moon ..they adores the glittering stars ! But when it comes to me ! I am glared at with hatred and fear !! ..even though i am the stage in which the moon stand ! ..
But i guess in the end people will always fall in love with the lead actor and ignore the shadow ! I am the darkness from which the light was born ! Yet..we are not the same ! I wonder if i am gone ..will someone notice ?! "
That last remark was said with great grief and slightly smiling face, he Took out a cigarette, then looked at her whom stayed silent listening to him addressing his worries and inner thoughts .." Good night " He said it with a little regret for confessing all that to a stranger. Mumbled a little scolding to himself before disappearing ; leaving behind the traces of the smoke ..salty taste of tears ..the cold wind ..and "her" staring blankly at the empty sky !
Thinking of an answer that will soothe his pain ! But all of them were just an empty lies !! She took her pen from above her left ear..then pulled a small note book from her back pocket and started scribbling " i guess the bitter truth will always remain the same ! ..there are those who will shine ..and those who will eternally be the shadow that wt i truly believed before meeting "him" ..but guess wt ?! He actually changed my mind cause now i believe that..every once and while we will find someone who can see the other side of the coin ..someone like him will see you !! .. you know why he will ?! ..because probably he himself ! Is an outcast !! ..one of those who don't fit in the spot light ..
When you meet that kind of person i want you to ask him..are you sad ?! ..are you lonely?!..and i bet you will be surprised when he chuckle with confidence stating that "he is not !!" ..
Because simply you don't need the world to approve your existence..happiness and worth !! And till you start loving yourself no one will ever love you !! Decide your own value .. My dear darkness ..grow darker..and prettier .. And one day ..those whom are blinded by the light ..will notice the charm..deepness and the comfort which lay inside you .. Your kind symphony .. Will engulf their hearts leaving them mesmerized just like that person did to me !! You see ..you said you are like the night ..and to me There is nothing more beautiful than the view from my small balcony..my cup of coffee and the deep deep sweet darkness !
She grinned ..teared that piece of paper ..then made it in the shape of a fly and through it at the balcony next door !!
"Successfully landed"..chuckled happily while closing the door behind her ..she walked toward the kitchen ..opened the refrigerator ..took out a can of cola..then returned to the balcony ..leaned till the tip of the Can touched the ground ..left it there beside that piece of paper..and then closed the door smiling happily.
She jumped on her comfy bed while holding her laptop, her head was spinning with new ideas for her novel.. ( she can only write when he is there ! ) When she can hear the sound of his Tv or smell the burned food ..
The way he always struggled against life, gave her inspiration to keep writing..no matter how many time publishing companies kept rejecting her works..thanks to that "Can of Cola"..which was her thread of hope; a thread that she never let go of ..till it led her to the path of success !!
..one year ago..
In a rainy day..with another cruel failure she was standing with her grief ..this time she decided to give up ..letting go of that brown file was easy..but stopping the tears from falling was hard !!
( i am glad it is raining ) said her inner voice..in that moment he came out of the store across the street ..approached her holding a can of cola ..gently smiled ..then gathered the papers and put them back in the file .." don't give up so easily ..i don't know you..but..he - smiled childishly- before stating " your looks are suited for success ! " ..then simply left ..leaving her completely dazed ! Holding a can of cola .. Then she broke out laughing..she laughed her heart out..dried her tears..and walked home humming happily !
12 month later..
All her dreams came true , her books are found every where..and every time she was writing ..she kept wishing ..that he will read her story..
Today she was finally able to return him the favor.. Not only meeting him again but to be this close ! To her it Was like a fairy tale.. A reason to keep her pen moving..to move other people hearts And now..
" The boy next door !"
Was the title of her new novel ..she grinned while diving into her world of happiness.. He said he was a shadow..but to her he was the leading actor .. He just never noticed :) !!
Will that can of cola ..make him notice ?! Who knows..some mysteries are not meant to be solved ..or may be that is just me being mean to my readers ^*
Fin ~
