confusion? // sf & bw

ch 21 // <3

i walked to my closet and saw steven, he had roses in hands. he gave them to me, wonder why he made all that ? lol. " liz can i ask you something ? " he looked nervous like he was gonna do something serious. " yea sure go ahead steven " i was lost asff. " wi- wil- will you go on a date with me? like a sibling date. " i was kinda sad, i thought i was going to get asked out 🙂. " sur - sure steven.. when? " i faked smile. " tomorrow around 1 ? , i'll meet you by the corner "he weakly smiled, he knew i was sad. " yea " i walked steven out there. watching steven walk out the door made me cry, i ran to my room and bursted into tears. i don't wanna go on that date him with him anymore. i walked to the bathroom, grabbed a blade. blood was going down my wrist, i was feeling better. why didn't i years ago? i shouldn't be here. i decided to text steven that i'm gonna busy tomorrow, i lied. i fell asleep on the bathroom floor.

i woke up and it was 12. i decided to take a shower and think about life. i didn't wanna do anything today, i just wanna commit suicide already. why did my dad leave me? am i that useless? was i something he didn't need? i couldn't stand it, a few tears went down my cheeks. it was now 5 O'clock, i was scrolling but then i stopped. i got a text from an unknown number.

To - Liz

From - Unknown number

haha bitch, brandon is finally mine! you thought you wouldn't have him huh?? and btw, just kill your self already! your worthless, ugly, stupid, and fat! your not perfect!! haha!! ugly whore.

right away, i knew it was arii and turned off my phone not knowing that steven was in front of my house. i went downstairs looking for a knife, as soon i was trying to slit my throat, steven came in. i bursted into tears in his arms.

S T E V E N S P O V

i went to liz house to check on her since she wasn't responding to my calls. i rang her door bell, she didn't answer, i rang again no response. the door was unlocked, wow so smart steven and i saw liz with a knife in her hand. i ran to her and took it away, i knew what she was gonna do. " why ? " i looked her in the eyes, they were red. " steven i can't live like this anymore, don't you get it ? I LOVE YOU ! i lost brandon and i'm afraid i'll lose you. steven promise me you won't leave me like how brandon did to me? " she looked me into my eyes, while i was lost in hers. " yes i promise baby girl, i won't leave you no matter what and that's always gonna be a promise " i was so upset that she was about to commit suicide. it got quiet but i broke it. " liz, why did you do that? " i gave her a serious because i'm worried about her. " well i got a text from an unknown number saying all these names about me. it made me put myself down " she puts her head down but i left up her chin, i looked her in the eye and pecked her lips and said ' it's gonna be alright baby girl, you got me. you shouldn't care what other people say about you. " she looks at my lips and our lips met again.

L I Z S P O V

i couldn't help but kiss steven. it turned into a make out session. i was just still upset what arrii said about me. i wish i could just give up! i wish that bitch never stepped into my life. i wish i stayed in Texas, ughhh my life is so unfair. i told steven to leave but he didn't want to, so i just fell asleep on his shoulders. i wanted to get things out of my mind atm. i woke up feeling better, it was around 9 so i just went on my phone like usual. i was so bored that i jumped on steven, he woke up looking all lost lmao. ugh today was a bad day, but when steven came, it gotten better. " so about that date, can we reschedule that? " i smirk because ya know 😉. " sure anything for you (; " he smiles at me which makes me smile ahhh ! . " hey behh ? i just called my mom that i'll be staying at your house for awhile since your having these probs " he hugs, i'm red as a tomato. " awwwhh ty beh ! " he hugged him back and kissed his cheeks. his cheeks were soft asf, " anything for you beh ".

i fell asleep but then i woke up. i couldn't sleep
at all, steven was on my mind wait what? 😅. lol i think i'm hearing things.

this is short it's like only 800 words but i'll update tomorrow 💖, it's currently 11:00 from where i live soooo gn! 💙