The Midnight Kiss

Chapter 16

Here is chapter 16 hope you guys enjoy it :D

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Louis' POV:

              Harry has been taking quite a long time and decide to go and see what is taking him. I walk into the kitchen and see him holding a razorblade to his fingertips. My eyes begin to tear up. Was he already resorting to this?

"Harry?!" I say still shocked.

He whips his head around not expecting me to be there.

"L-Louis I-I......." Harry trails off having nothing to say.

"What were you doing with that razorblade?!" I say hurt that he would even think of doing this.

"I-I....don't know, I thought it would help me get through the hate." Harry says crying.

"No Harry that is letting them win, that is letting them know they have broken you to the point of hurting yourself. You don't want them to win do you?" I ask crying still.

"N-no I just thought the pain would make it all go away." Harry says dropping the razorblade back into the box.

"Harry if you do this then you would be hurting me more then you would be yourself, just the thought of you hurting yourself gives me pain.

As soon as the words leave my lips Harry is getting up and hugging me sobbing into my chest and gripping me for dear life.

"N-no Louis would never hurt you, don't want to give you pain, ever!" Harry says in hysterics.

"Just don't ever hurt yourself or even think about it for that matter and you won't ever bring me pain." I say into his luscious curls.

"Never Lou never....never....never." Harry repeats still crying.

I let Harry go but instantly clings to my side. I let him stay as I pick up the box and put it on the table so I can hide it from Harry later.

"I'm going to hide those ok? Because I can't throw them away because of safety reasons." I tell him.

"It does not matter L-Louis I will not hurt myself, never, don't want to hurt you, never.....never....." Harry repeats again.

"Shhh baby I know you won't, I know I trust you." I say into his ear.

"Good."

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Harry's POV:

When Louis found me with the razorblades I was really scared that he wasn't going to love me anymore. But he does and it is great and all but, I still feel this hole in my heart now. Where it is empty and there is no love. I keep thinking about the razorblades and how they would be able to fill that hole. But, Louis said it would hurt him and I promised......But I don't know how long I will be able to last. The feeling of the blade slicing open my skin and seeing the small amount of blood drip out made me feel whole and all my depression and sadness just slip away like the blood running down my skin. It just felt so natural. I still wasn't proud of it though. I didn't like that that was my way of releasing stress. I want Louis to be able to do that. He does everything right and he always says I'm beautiful but, it isn't enough and I don't know why. I just want this gnawing felling to go away.

"Harry are you ok?" Niall says waving his hand in front of my face.

Me and Louis came back in when we were done with our crying fit and brushed off the questions about why we took so long. The rest of the lads probably thinking we were snogging.

"Ya I'm fine just getting a little tires I guess...." I say trailing off, not wanting to really talk.

"Did you want us to leave?" Zayn asks voice filled with concern.

I don't want them to leave, they are the only thing between me and the thought about the hate and the razorblades.

"No, no, no ,no, no." I say rather to quickly.

"I mean just stay for a little bit longer you have only been here for 2 hours." I say.

"Alright, then what do you want to play?" Zayn ask all four of us.

"Twister." Louis says.

"Ok!" Everyone says.

We get the mat out and play rock paper scissors for who goes first. I end up going first and have green for my right hand and blue for my left foot. I already look funny apparently because everyone is laughing at my compromising position. I hear Niall ask Louis if he had me in this position last night. Me and Louis' cheeks redden and Niall cackles, I see Louis slap his arm out of the corner of my eye. It's Louis turn next and he has a blue left hand and a yellow left foot. He is sprawled over my body. By the time Liam and Niall squish through and only Zayn is left my arms are weak and I can barley stay up. Zayn then slowly places his left foot on a green and tries to reach for a yellow with his right hand but can't reach and tumbles on top of us and we all fall into a heap of laughter. This was surprisingly making me feel a lot better and the hole in my heart was starting to get smaller but not by a lot. It's a start.

"Alright we should probably get going." Liam says under me and Louis.

"But you just got here." I say into Louis, who is on top of me.

"Harry it is 7 o'clock! We got here at 12." Liam retaliates

"Fine." I say defeated.

All of us get up and me and Louis walk them to the door, bidding them goodbye. When they are out the door Louis turns to me and kisses me. I am surprised at first but then melt into his touch and rake my fingers through his hair.

"Harry I love you so much and I never want to see a scar on you from a blade understand?" Louis asks me.

I look into his ocean blue eyes.

"Of course."

I mean it when I say that. Maybe I won't need the blades as long as I have Louis, right? Or am I just telling myself lies?

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So I have something planned for this story and I can't wait to write it. Comment what you guys think will happen and don't forget to vote :D