The Midnight Kiss

Chapter 18

Suuuuuuuper sorry that I haven't updated! I just try to avoid this fanfic because its my first fanfic so i don't really like it :/ but i will be starting a new one and i wll be doing one shots i might even post it today so please stay tuned! :D

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Harry's POV:

        It had been about a week since I started cutting. I always feel bad when i do it. I know Louis would be disapointed in me, he would be disgusted, would never want look at body with all the cuts. I was currently sitting on the couch watching watever trying to ignore my thoughts. Louis walked over to me and handed me a cuppa.

"Thanls." I say with dullness.

"Is something bothering you sweetheart?" Louis asks me as he sits down.

"No I'm fine." I lie. I seem to be doing that a lot now.

Louis gives me a kiss. I kiss him back with love. Louis tries to make it more heated. I put my hand on his chest.

"Louis. can we just sit here?"

  Louis says kissing his curls.

"Can we go to bed then I'm tired." I say.

"Sure thing love."

When we go to bed I quickly get changed into my PJ bottoms when Louis' back is turned becuase i don't want him to see my gross body.

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Louis' POV:

Harry has been acting very strange latley. He isn't himself. All he does is mope around the house. I've told the boys and they have come over and try and cheer him up but nothing works. So I sit him down and have a talk with him.

"Harry why have you beem acting so strange?"

"I don't know what you are talking about." He says avoiding eye contact.

"Harry you know exactly what I am talking about! Now tell me what's wrong."

"Its nothing Louis! Just drop it okay?!" Harry yells.

He runs off to our bedrom before i can catch him. I let him leave because what else can i say? I wait an hour before I finally go up to our bedroom.

"Baby?"

I hear snuffling and quick shuffles.

"Why are you crying?"

"Because I am a worthless fag and I don't deserve you!"

Does harry really think that and for how long.

"Oh my God Harry how long have thought this about yourself?!"

"Ever since the hate started."

"Harry this is not good you need a therapist."

"I already found a we to relieve my stress."

"How?" I ask him.

"You don't need to know."

"Harry I am your boyfriend and I love you! So you will tell me!"

Harry slowly pulled down his pants and boxwers. I stared at his hip in shock and felt tears come to the surface.

"Why Harry Why?!"

"See this is why i didn't want to tell you! Now your disgusted in me!"

"Harry I would never find you disgusting! But you need to stop this it isn't healthy!"

"I can't promise you that i will stop." 

"Harry you have to! You need help!"

"If I get help will you still love me?"

"I will always love you."

I lean forward and kiss Harry on the lips then slowly move down and kiss the scars. I hear Harry cry soflty above me. I give him one more kiss to his salty lips.

"I love you so much."

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So this was a sucky chapter because one it was a long upsate and two it was short. I promise an update again this week though. Love you guys.