A beating heart

1. Lost breeze

Someone please, tell me.

Someone please, wake me up.

- 10minutes ago...

They should be here by now, I'll just call.  I was waiting in front of  Mcgill 's faculty of medicine. Today was the interview day, i was sooo nervous, but everything went so smoothly. My dear dream, here I come! Interviews are normally in may, but because of complications, i had to wait until winter's semester. It was an exception, since the complications were the school's fault. They wanted me to do another interview. I don't know why, but anyways! I did it hehehehe. Once again, my dear dream, here I come.

it rang 5 times, when someone finally answered

- Mom, where are you? Is there traffic? I just came out from the interview, it went super amazingly miraculously well! I'm-

- Hello, this is hospital sacred heart, are you a family member of the phone's owner?

In. I thought like of I was finishing what I was saying.

-E-Excuse me? oh yes...

- I'm really sorry to tell you this, but your family was in a traffic accident, we need you to come to the hospital as soon as possible.

-hahaha, this is a prank right? Yeonwoo-yah, don't try to change your voice stop joking it ain't funny. Are you arriving soon?

My big brother was quite a prankster 

- Miss, I am sorry, you should, take a deep breath, do not panic and please arrive safely.

It was not a prank. It was not Yeonwoo's joke. It was- I can't breathe, heee huuu, Areum-ah, calm down. Breath in, now breath out, that's it girl. Everything was getting all blurry, i couldn't think straight.

Taxi, yes Taxi. Tears go back to where you came from, they are fine. Dad is an amazing driver. you will, go and you will find dad, mom, Yeonwoo, Jinwoo and Soeun all fine! It's alright. Now go girl.

I started running to the taxi street. I call it  the taxi street, 'cause there is always a lane of Taxis waiting there.

If there are all fine, why did the nurse answer my mom's phone? Did something happen to her? No, no, no these thoughts are denied okay!? But, why didn't Yeonwoo or dad answer at her place? STOP , AREUM, STOP.

I'm going crazy chincha. Tears blurred my view.

Someone please, tell me.

Someone please, wake me up.

I wiped my tears as I opened a taxi's door.

- H-Hospital sacred heart, p-please! I said as I was still panting.

-Good evening miss! said the driver

-Oh, sorry good evening. Can you hurry up please.  My voice cracked.

-This sound serious, don't worry, I'll take you there in no time. I hope everything is fine thought. said the driver, kind of understanding the situation

-Thank you very much, I said grateful

I kept biting my lower lip and tapping my left foot on the car floor as I was praying.

God, please,please,please,please,please,please,please,please,please,please,please,please,please,please,please,please,please,please, oh please let them be safe. Anything, but just let them be safe, please.

This is not how today was supposed to go. My family was supposed to pick me up in front of the university. Had I passed the interview or no, we were going to a buffet that Yeonwoo highly recommended. We were going to eat, have fun, talk about everything and nothing. Soeun and Jinwoo, respectively my little sister and my little brother were going to so all kind of jokes ad pranks. I was probably going to drop a glass of whatever, of bump into someone or just make my fork or spoon fly away. Maybe it would have been a piece of food that fled away.  I would be as shooked as anyone.  But it wouldn't be as surprise for my family. My mom would probably wonder if my clumsiness would ever go away. Clumsiness would be like: euhhh..no. Once clumsy, forever clumsy. I would text my best friends and tell them what happened, they would laugh yet they would not be surprised. That's what today's evening was supposed to be like.

-Here we are miss. The driver's voice snapped me out from my thought.

He handed me a tissue. I didn't understand why, so I looked at him confused.

- Wipe your tears miss, everything's gonna be fine. he said trying to comfort me. That was sweet of him.

I didn't realize that I was crying.

-I hope so too. Thank you very much. I said as I took the tissue and wiped my face.

I grabbed my bag, took out my wallet and I payed and told him to keep the change. I stepped out of the car.

-Thank you, be safe miss!

-drive safely, I answered as he drove off.

I stood there. In front of me a big building. Sacred heart Hospital.

Something cold, but soft landed on my face.

Snow. It was snowing. As if the sky was trying to comfort me.  I took a deep breath and went in. I walked to the receptionist.

-Excuse me? I said hesitantly

-Yes miss, how may I help you?

-I'm here for Miss. Song and-

- Oh! you must be a family member of the traffic accident victims.

-yes , I said as I felt tears forming. I wanted to answer no so badly.

-Follow me please, said the nurse

and that's what I did. She led me to a door. It's said operating door.  Everything was blank. I looked at the nurse. My eyes widened. What is this? You are supposed to lead me to a room, where I would see my family just getting a general check up.  But I couldn't manage to bring out a single word my mouth.

At that moment, a doctor came out.

- Doctor, this is the family member of-

She, the doctor, didn't let her finish. What's with those people interrupting whenever someone is talking, I thought hysterically.

The doctor approached me.

-Miss, please sit down and hear me out and do not panic.

Sit down? How can I sit down? my legs were never as stiff as they are right now. I stood right there. Looking at her, with tears falling, screaming with my eyes for her to tell me where are my parents and my siblings.

The doctor took a deep breath. I stopped breathing. Since when? I don't know.

- We tried our best. The kids are fine. They were not badly hurt  thanks to their big brother, he protected them, but that, I am so sorry, cost him his life. ( I felt a slap. A hard one.) When your parents arrived in they were already in a critical condition, we did our best, but... I'm really sorry ( I felt two other slaps. Another two hard ones.)

I can't breathe. This ain't true. No.  Someone, please, no, oh God, please no.

Miracle. Please I need one. Right now. Desperately.

My legs broke down, as I was trying to breath with the help of all my breathing accessory muscles. I couldn't see anything. I felt like all the tears that my lacrimal glands could produce wanted to come out at the same. My heart was breaking in pieces, no in dust. I just wanted someone to stun me so that everything could just stop.

I need a miracle.

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Author's note

What did you think about this first chapter?  Give it a chance :) Park Jimin should be in by the 3rd chapter hehe