Let me love you || JM

:17

Jason's pov

After about 3 seasons of Miracles favorite show "Supernatural" she finally manage to sleep on my chest.Zach came in earlier and took all the beeping machines he had put for Miracle.Im really worried about her.She is still shaking in fear after what happened to her.Samuel should pay for what he did to her,Andrea and all the girls that were there.

I'm managing to keep a secret that I feel guilty for what happened to the girl I shot.For the first time,I feel guilty to shoot at a innocent girl that didn't deserve to die.I can imagine how her parents are right now.They must be worried,desperate,scared...all these things that a parent worries about their missing child.Im trying my best to keep this in a secret and not let anyone find out especially the gang.

I didn't notice I was crying till I felt a cold tear run down my cheek.I wipe it away and sniff a few times.My eyes started getting watery and I couldn't help but break down.Automatically,Miracle wakes up and looks up at me.

"Jason?Whats wrong?Why are you crying?"Miracle asks.

Shit.

"I'm crying because of the show."I lie.

Miracle turns to look at the tv then at me.

"Jason,nothing sad is happening.The show is showing that Dean and Sam are fighting with some guys for a lucky rabbits foot."Miracle says.

"But their lucky that they have a lucky rabbits foot."I lie again.

"Jason,please tell what's really wrong ,"Miracle pleades.

"Fine.But you need to promise me you won't tell anyone."I say.

"I won't.I promise."she says with a little smile.

"Ok,umm.."I think how to explain to her.Its gonna be a little hard to say the truth but if she wants to know,then she's gonna know,"I didn't kill Samuel."

"So your crying cause you didn't kill Samuel?"she laughs a little.

"No it's not that,"I take a deep breath and let it out,"When I found out that I didn't kill Samuel,you know,I went to see who I killed.So,when I saw the body and realized it wasn't Samuel,I was feeling something I've never felt before.Something everyone feels except me."

"Jason,that feeling is called guilt.Everyone has that feeling when they something wrong and they knew it wasn't right.I also fell that way too sometimes.But guess what?I learn from my mistakes."

"I know that."

"Who did you kill if you didn't kill Samuel?"Miracle asks.

"That's the thing.I killed an innocent person that didn't deserve to die."I say.

"Who did you kill?"

I take another deep breath and let out,with more tears coming out.

"I killed one of the girls."my voice cracks when I say 'girls'.

Miracle keeps starting at me for a second them nods her head a little.She looks away and sighs.

"Jason,it's ok.Were gonna-"