Relief

chapter three

I woke up the nest day not wanting to move an inch. I felt physically and mentally drained from moving across the world and I wasn't ready to face people. I got an awful night sleep last night sleep; I kept waking up due to my nightmares. If you could call them that, they were more like flashbacks. But last night they were more heart wrenching than usual, the main character had changed. changed to harry. Why now? Why him? We just moved and I'm being sucked in again, but why? What about him makes my mind and body so attracted to him? I don't know what it is but it needs to stop, its scary really. I want to have control over my feelings and be able to keep them at bay ; not having my emotions raging over one hot guy. Its irritating.

My head hurts just thinking about everything which is why Alex and Lizzy literally had to pry me out of bed. I don't understand their need to get me up today. They know not to mess with me on my emotional/tired days. But the only thing they told me was that it was an important something. I didn't hear the rest because it was muffled through the sound of hot water rushing onto my bare skin as I pushed- by Lizzy- into the shower. After drying off I looked around the bathroom, which by the looks of it Lizzy had already unpacked her stuff into it. I walked back into my room, which had my three suitcases sprawled out everywhere, but nothing else was in the room. Last night all I did was out a sheet on the bed (which I'm happy to say is a queen) and took off my jeans and my bra. So here I am trying to make something of this disaster.

When I finally found my blue bandue, my Beatles muscle tank top, and my favorite pair of skinny jeans. I got dressed and left the room, in search of the kitchen or Alex. Alex normally has coffee making in the morning. The apartment -oops I meant 'flat' as they are called in London-isn't that big so I find Alex, Lizzy and the kitchen very quick, which was when I realized we have no food. "She's alive! " I heard Alex mutter. Lizzy then said "Its about time, I'm starving. Are you ready to leave?" I shake my head and leave to go put on my keds and lazily put my hair into a messy bun, my signature hairstyle. Then I start with the makeup; foundation, black eyeliner, and heavy masquera. Then finally I add a coat of my strawberry flavored baby lips. Next I put in my ear cuff that connects with chains to my black studs. I can't wait to get another piercing.

The elevator ride down was quiet, so I pulled out my phone to text my brother and sister. Me and my sister were two years apart but nothing like each other. She was a goody goody and loved to be a girly girl. But surprisingly we get along great. Although last year she went to college in California, I've missed her so much. My brother is 27 and went to the air force right out of high school, so he just graduated from college last year. Also he just had his one year anniversary with his newly wed; they're perfect together. I love my brother and sister (Hunter and Mckayla), but our relationships were based on the giggly little girl I used to be. I changed a lot and sometimes its hard not to have them close. But I told them I would text them when we arrived in London, so I sent two messages:

TO: Bubba :p xx

we got to London last night, :D its great here, please send love to rose

TO: Kay-Kay <3

oh you would just love it here Kay! I miss you so much please tell me any exciting news you have, I'll call you later! :D xxxx

I put my phone back into the back pocket of my jeans and walked out of the elevator. Thinking quietly about everything that has changed since I was younger, before all the drama arouse. "Where are we going?" I wondered aloud. "Well first were going to Starbucks for your coffee so you don't happen to be murderous today, then we have to pick up our schedules from the college." I glared at him as we started to follow the GPS on Lizzies phone, I really hope that we don't get lost. "You two seriously couldn't do those things without me-" I checked my phone's clock. " Its only eight in the fricken' morning! The college is open all day, but you had to wake me up now! WHY!!!" I sneered through my teeth. But my friends only chuckled, and Lizzy said to Alex" We really do need to get coffee into her" UGH! Coffee isn't going to fix me! But they know that, they know everything about me. they also know everything I've been through. Which is why they out up with me, I really do love them.

The coffee does sort of help , and were sitting at Starbucks right now chatting and laughing; when I feel my phone buzz, its Mckayla.

FROM: Kay-Kay<3

That's amazing! I have so much to tell you as well, I will defiantly call you tonight; when I tell you you'll be so proud! :*

I wonder if she finally got herself a boy. Mckayla was gorgeous but she declined any guy that went after her, she always said she had to focus on school. But when she found Liam I was so happy for her. they have been together for over a year now. So I reply with:

TO: Kay-Kay<3

Does it have to do with something to do with your man?:)

I chuckle to myself and ask Alex and Lizzy if they're ready to leave. I can tell they've both noticed my mood change but they don't mention it. This time instead of walking we call a taxi so we would know the easiest route to get to the main office of the college. During the ride there, a song comes on and I hum along

it feels like I'm constantly playing a game that I am destined to lose

'cause I can't compete with your boyfriend he's got 27 tattoo's!

By the end of the line I was full on singing, which is abnormal for me but who cares? Not I! I'm in a good mood and I'm not going to think about anything depressing. Also the song just rocks. I usually like Greenday or Sleeping with Sirens, not pop. But this song is catchy. Oh well we just arrived at the college.

We walk up the marble staircase to the front office and ask the lady if she would be of any help. She looked up kind of flustered, then says her name is carol and the schedules are filed on the desk in the corner. I follow her line of vision and spot the desk right away. We thank her and rush over to it.

As were scanning the papers hurriedly I hear Lizzy loudly gasp. She looks directly at me and hands me a schedule, I don't know anyone in London so who could it possibly be?

*********LIZZIES P.O.V.***********

I watch as her face falls. Confusion replaced with anger. I thought she made it clear to him she never wanted to see him again. I thought she made it clear she wanted him on the other side of the ocean for a reason.

I walked over to her hesitantly, unsure of how she is going to react. I look over at Alex, silently telling him to give us a minuet. He nods and walks away with a worried expression covering his face. I gently rub small circles into her back trying to keep her calm the best way I can, she needs all the support she can get, and at this point were all she has. She starts to shake and for a second I think she will cry, but as she never ceases to surprise me she doesn't. Instead of shaking out of fear or memories, she was shaking because she was boiling with anger. But still she allows me to lead her out of the building before she starts to scream.

"Why can't he stay away! I hope he dies somehow! He better not be in any of my classes!" She's shout's to no one in particular. I still have my hand on her back trying to calm her down but I know she's not done yet. So before we leave to go get Alex, she says " I HATE HIM!! I HATE ZAYN MALIK!!!" I was shocked she had said his name. I haven't heard her say his name since that night.

**********RYANN'S P.O.V***************

At first I was confused, then I was scared; what will happen when he sees me again? But now I am beyond furious! After everything he did he decides to follow me to London, he knew this was my dream. The only thing I was actually looking forward to after high school. Which is exactly why he came, he knew I would react this way. that's the worst part too, he know me as well as he knew himself. Until one day things changed.

Alex was trying to talk to me to tell me that it was going to be fine, he wasn't going to get to me. But I don't care. I remember the hole I used to feel in my chest because of him and I also feel it coming back again, but this time eating me from the inside out, and that's just from thinking about him. I haven't said his name in months. I'm so lost and I feel like collapsing. But I can't and I won't, I won't become weak because of him again. he doesn't deserve that kind of satisfaction. So I calm myself down and walk back to the apartment with Alex and Lizzy. We have a lot to do right now, so I'm not going to worry about him until I have to.

WOW that was a lot longer than my first two chapters! I feel proud of myself I was literally typing/writing it all day but that's okay because I enjoy it! please give feedback!

--alex