Jane Lynch Dairy

Chapter 1

Dear Diary,
October 21,2016
"Shut up bitch" I said "Shut up" screaming from downstairs. You hear it daily it never stops next it's us I'm next. "Jane come here ..Move faster!!" *smack* "I said move faster Go clean the bathrooms out now." Next my brothers. "Jaylen Jayden how many times do I have to tell you both to pick up your toys" *crying* "HOW MANY TIMES I SAID!!" *smack* *smack* "Get out of my face." Walking away holding my brothers while crying looking at my mom face beating us because my dad beat her. My brothers are to young and I fear for them I'll protect them with my life so they don't get hurt. What they do to us beat us because they are not happy so we can't be happy either. I had to keep my brothers quiet because if I didn't she'll come back up or even him and beat us all and when he beat us it's with his fist. I need tomorrow to come go to school and learn that's my only way out. Next year is my last year and I don't want to leave my brothers but I can't stay the shit I've been through since my dad lost his job it's been getting worse. He do drugs and my moms a nurse who steals them she helps him get high so he can beat get and us.  I hate my life it's hurts so much tears just rolling down my eyes. I just want to say something but I just keep my mouth close because even if I voice my opinion it wouldn't do no help probably bring more hurt then good. I'm scared and who would I tell I fight with myself everyday just to speak but to who Child protective services ,I won't because I need my brothers we got no one were alone we are on our on fighting a battle I won't win. Shit happens but why to us we deserve better were their kids and get treated like step childs.. It's getting late I'll write tomorrow hopefully that's when I hear the good news...