한류 // a fic collection

lie

in which jimin is in bangtan sonyeondan along with the other six members; prelude to first love
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he clenched his fists and he could feel his nails digging into his palms. he tried to relieve the pain by gripping onto the brim of the sink, trying to make sense of everything rushing through his head; every memory, every thought, every word he could think of trying to piece together what he was feeling at that very moment. he took a deep breath and stared at himself in the bathroom mirror. his eyebags were heavy, making his eyes look puffy. a feature he adores.

jimin shut his eyes, fingers losing colour as he held on even tighter onto the sink. now is not the time to think about him. it's clear he doesn't like me that way and he only ever liked me as a friend. if he did, he would have done something. he would have said something... anything.

"jimin-ah! stop hogging the toilet!" taehyung called from outside. jimin was slightly relieved his best friend could pull him back to reality and momentarily pull him out of the hell within his mind. he knew he shouldn't have talked to yoongi ever since he noticed his hyung had been avoiding him for about a week now.

jimin was in the kitchen, making himself a cup of coffee. he was adding a packet of sugar just when yoongi entered the kitchen. their eyes met, making jimin's heart skip a beat. jimin could sense that yoongi was startled by his presence but it was only for a split second before his expression fell flat and he turned on his heel to leave the kitchen.

"why are you avoiding me?" jimin blurted out. yoongi stopped dead on his tracks. he could feel anger bubbling slowly inside him but he was doing his best to not explode in front of yoongi. he didn't want to seem too concerned with being ignored; he is often ignored by the others and somehow this was an exception he didn't want yoongi to notice.

his shoulders fell and jimin was slightly taken aback by his reaction. yoongi sighed and said, "can you just leave me alone for today? i've had enough going on in here already."

yoongi had his finger at his temple. jimin took a step forward, wanting to comfort yoongi but yoongi seemed to sense it and he took a step forward.

yoongi then turned around to face jimin. jimin could see the despair in his eyes and he wanted so badly to hug the sadness out of yoongi. "please, jimin... not today..."

jimin took his cup of coffee and handed it to yoongi. "at least, have this."

yoongi stared at the cup of coffee and the steam was fogging up his glasses. he looked back at jimin. jimin was trying his best not to look disappointed by forcing a reassuring smile which was something he thinks yoongi may need at that moment.

yoongi returned the soft smile and jimin's heart fluttered. their fingers brushed when yoongi took the cup from jimin's hands. jimin wasn't sure if it was his eyes tricking him but he saw yoongi flinching a little when they made contact. maybe it is the hot coffee mug... but he hardly reacts to such things...

yoongi mumbled a quiet "thank you" before leaving the kitchen with his head hung low. jimin kept telling himself not to think about it too much but look at the situation he was in right now.

he was still unsure why he had found himself attracted to yoongi. he thought it was a platonic attachment he had with yoongi but gradually, he felt that it was something more and he often get awkward showing his usual sense of affection to yoongi. he tried to convince himself many times that he shouldn't feel this way and that he was just confused. he had thought of what his fans and his members would think of him and, most importantly, how yoongi would react.