f. farah who used to be fine

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trigger warning: rape

farah. his name means happiness
in the language i was born speaking,
but his name no longer fitted him.

farah. at some point, he was happy,
but one day, it all changed; ever since
then, i never caught him looking alive.

farah. he used to be a lot. he used to
smile a lot and he used to laugh a lot,
but he trusted a lot, when he loved.

farah. some say he should have loved
it like he loved a lot. others say he should
just forget it, because he forgot a lot.

farah. others say that he was lying, since
he lied a lot, but can't they remember how
he was happy and honest as a lot as he lied?

farah. the glint in his eyes died a long time
ago and people got used to it. but i will never
forget how his name once suited him.

(farah; when i saw him again with
stars in his eyes and a dimple in his cheek,
i realised that everyone can grow and heal,
even if it took a lot of time and a lot of life.)

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