Silent Love [COMPLETED]

ღ Chapter one ღ

I arrived at school late as always. I was still five years old. The main reason why I loved going to school was because Sora was there. Every time I was around him I felt happy. He always made me laugh, and he was a good-natured boy as well. But he used to have a negative complexion of himself. He knew people were teasing him behind his back. But I realized that it was starting to get out of hand. It wasn’t a secret anymore. They would laugh at his geeky appearance and bully him about it constantly. It was me who cheered him up all the time.

One day, he asked me if the rumors of me only liking him for his status were true.

“Of course not!” I remember exclaiming shocked.

“Alright then. It’s just that… sometimes I wonder if you were better off without me. Maybe you would prefer to have a better-looking friend or something rather than… me.” He spat ‘me’ out with disgust. “You deserve at least that much.”

He was but a year older than me, yet he was far smarter than me. His vocabulary was amazing for a six-year-old.

“I like Sora-nii for Sora-nii,” I replied simply.

He smiled and hugged me. I hugged him back happily. I couldn’t understand, though, why my heart was beating so fast.

So when I got home, I asked my mother why that happened to me so often. She couldn’t stop laughing.

“Why are you laughing, Mommy?” I asked her, curious as I was.

“Honey!” She called out to my dad, “Get a load of this! Our cute little daughter has a small crush on Sora-kun!”

Dad joined in laughing with her. I gave them a questioning gaze.

“You’ll understand later, baby,” Mom said while pinching my cheeks.

“When?” I asked.

“When you’re old enough.”

I crossed my arms and went to my room, pouting. I wasn’t satisfied with the answer I had received. I thought it was a normal feeling to have towards your friend. I even thought it could have meant that I saw him as a really close friend, like a brother even. But what I didn’t know was that it meant that he really was a close friend of mine. The only difference was that it did not refer to a brother-sister relationship. So I actually went to school the next day and asked Sora what having a crush was like.

“That’s sudden,” he said while laughing awkwardly.

“I asked Mommy but she also laughed at me. She didn’t answer me.”

He gazed at the sky, wondering how he could explain it to me. “Well,” he started, “having a crush means that when you’re around someone you feel kind of weird inside. It’s a pleasant feeling, but some people think it feels uncomfortable.”

“Present?” I asked puzzled, not knowing how to pronounce the word ‘pleasant’ or what it meant at that matter.

He laughed again. “Sorry. Dad taught me that word yesterday. You see, because Mom and Dad expect so much of me in the future, they’re teaching me all sorts of stuff at home. It includes my vocabulary. But truth be told, I’m not interested in that stuff at all. I just want to live a normal life, like everyone else does.”

I frowned at him. He quickly smiled and changed the subject.

“Anyway, so you can say ‘pleasant’ is a good thing and ‘uncomfortable’ is a bad thing, okay?”

I didn’t really understand what he meant, but I kind of understood what the difference was between good and bad. So I nodded.

“Do you have a crush on someone?” he asked me curiously.