Silent Love [COMPLETED]

ღ Chapter twelve ღ

I woke up feeling sick and tired. How could Sora possibly treat someone other than me so nice? Sure, okay, so that someone was no other than my best friend Vanessa. But I couldn’t help but to feel so jealous.

I don’t want to see him today, I told myself.

But once again it was Vanessa that made me want to go to school anyway. I ate a few chocolate chip cookies that Mom made yesterday and left to school. I didn’t even bother waking up neither Mom nor Dad, because I wanted to be alone and able to think clearly for a while.

And immediately I noticed that that was the best idea I could think of. The weather was a bit chilly, but it was bearable. Besides, winter was coming up; December was only a few months from now, and my lifespan was decreasing fast.

I lightly shook my head and tried thinking of something else, like my drawing.

I sighed. I was going to have to get an earful from my Arts teacher and I really wasn’t looking forward to that.

Maybe I could give him the drawing before he starts screaming, I thought. But no, I couldn’t do that, either. I didn’t even finish my drawing. So I decided to finish it during the classes. And in recess I would go to the garden or to the rooftop to continue. Besides, it’s not like I had so much to draw anymore, anyway.

My phone suddenly vibrated. It was Jun. I held my breath in as I read his message:

“Hey, I finally took some time off to talk to you. Good luck with your check-up today. How are you feeling? I can’t stop thinking about you. I’ll send you another message later.”

I didn’t realize I was crying until one teardrop fell on my cellphone screen. Why was he so nice? I didn’t deserve his kindness. How will he react when he finds out about me and Sora?

I frowned. Even though I didn’t know him very well, I knew he would be angry, sad and disappointed. That was only natural. And I really didn’t want to hurt him.

“You seem really distracted.”

I gulped. That voice sounded familiar. It was the end of my peaceful morning.

“Hey, are you okay?”

I ran away as fast as I could. Sora didn’t even bother chasing me. Or maybe he was that shocked at my reaction. I felt stupid and embarrassed. But if I was planning on marrying Jun, I had to start taking a stand.

But still, was running away really necessary?

I slowed my pace until I started walking again. I lowered my head. My heart was beating fast and it was slightly disrupting me from breathing.

“Ku-chan~”.

I turned around and saw Megumi’s smiling face. I didn’t smile back.

“How are you feeling?” she asked me.

I shrugged.

“Is there something wrong?”

I shrugged again. How could I possibly tell her? As if she could read my mind, she said:

“Well, you don’t have to tell me. But hey, I have a question for you. I’ll ask you when we arrive so you can write it down for me, okay?”

I nodded. Megumi gave me another one of her dazzling smiles. Why couldn’t Sora fall for a girl like her? As she walked away I considered that possibility. Tears jumped in my eyes again.

No, why did I have to react like that? I tried considering the possibility of Jun liking someone else. I felt as if my heart had stopped for a moment. At first I was happy that I reacted like that, but then I realized how confused I was.