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Chapter 3: Wait til' the morning

Chapter 3: wait til' the morning

I can hear someone saying my name, their voice sweet like honey but I'm so tired I'm incapable of even opening my eyes to find the source. I feel someone trailing there fingers over my bare arm, sending shivers down my spine. The voice, more familiar says my name again, fluttering my eyes open I'm met with Shaun's piercing blue eyes before my own.

" Mhmm?" I mumble, rubbing the sleep out of my eyes.

"The pizza is here" he softly replies, moving some hair out of my face.

"Pizza...what time is it? Did my mum phone... what day is it? -Wait pizza?" I murmur, voice slick with sleep.

"Shhh, it's half 8, your mums fine she spoke to mine and we'll drop you off tomorrow on the way to the airport, it's satnesday of the year 3000 obviously and yeahhhhh c'mon" he says before standing up and offering me his hand. I take his hand and he hoists me up, my senses becoming more alert I'm hit with the orgasmic smell of pizza. following my nose I find myself sat on the couch with Shaun, Anna and Stephen on the other, all of us huddled over the boxes of pizza watching titanic.

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"Oh how romantic" Anna wails, patting her eyes with a tissue.

"I mean they really loved each other" she continues. rolling my eyes I let out a sigh, Anna's a hopeless romantic. Shaun says I'm cynical about love, which isn't true! Im just realistic. I love all my love novels, but that's all they are, novels; words on a page, promises of love from non-existent characters who haven't endured a paper-cut never mind a broken heart.

"Right mum, I'm gonna take April before she bursts your bubble" Shaun says springing to his feet.

Letting out a gasp, I retort "I would ne- Well I mean... I, it's not my fault your perception of love is skewed!" I shrug my shoulders as everyone chimes in a loud chorused laugh before Shaun grabs me and we head to his room.

I can't help but stare at our intertwined fingers, and how his warm hand heats mine, I feel Shaun's eyes fall on mine and I quickly divert my gaze. If he noticed, he chose to keep it to himself.

I walk ahead, not daring to part our hands, I reach his room first and drag him in, only letting go so I could sprawl out on his bed. Leaning against his door frame, arms folded across his chest he smirks looking me up and down before shaking his head and closing the door.

He walks over to his drawers and pulls out one of his shirts and tosses it to me. I grab it and stand up to get changed, He looks at me with an amused look on his face, I pause.

"Turn around then?" I state.

Shaun obeying, I lift my shirt over my head, dropping it to the floor, I pull his on. I shimmy down my skinny jeans and step out of them. Shaun is not big. His clothes on me however, are; his plain white shirt stops just above my knees. I pick up my shirt and jeans, and walk over to the wardrobe, pulling out a hanger I close the doors, I hang my clothes on the hanger and hang it onto the handles of the wardrobe.

I head to his bed and stretch out like you would in the snow making a snow angel. I close my eyes and exhale all worries about him leaving tomorrow, my nostrils fill with him. his smell; I'm not sure what he smells like other than himself, it's kind of distinctive, but similar to everything. Like strawberries, you know when you're smelling strawberries but there are also lots of things that smell similar but when you smell them and you don't think of what you're actually smelling, you think of strawberries.

"Can I turn round yet" Shaun asks, pulling me from my thoughts. My eyes dart open, just realising he's been standing there the whole time.

" I don't know, can you?" I joke, sitting up I cross my legs in a basket like an infant in school. He's not facing me but I can practically feel his smile.

"I would but then I'd need to see your face" he counters.

"Oh, my ugliness wasn't so unbearable afew minutes ago, I had to tell you to look away" I retaliate, he turns to face me, his mood has shifted and the air is seeping with a new found tension; his pink lips straight, eyebrows furrowed and his eyes focused on mine. His stare is so intense I can't break my eyes away, like his eyes are a plughole and mine are the helpless water being sucked in.

"I never once, said you're ugly. Don't say that okay. You're not ugly" he states stiffly.

"Shaun you're supposed to-"

"No Stop!" He shouts closing his eyes. He never shouts, he never gets this worked up over this kind of stuff? Letting out a deep sigh his eyes re-open and he walks towards me, climbing onto the bed he kneels in front of me, conscious of his eyes i keep mine focused on my fidgeting hands. His hand lifting my chin, forcing me to look at him, we lock eyes and his hand shifts clasping my face, thumb stroking my cheek. His features have softened, his eyes glossed over, full of sadness and desperation.

"Apr-" his voice cracks, looking away, his body starts trembling. My chest tightens.

"April, please believe me..." He chokes out before he starts sobbing, his eyes looking up at mine through tears. I'm frozen in place I can't say or do anything. My bestfriend; The boy with the blue eyes, the bright smile and contagious laugh. He's the strongest guy I've ever met, the joker... Im watching crumble before me. what... how am I supposed to react to this?

"April" he sobs

"I- I don't, I" I mumble, truly at a loss for words.

"You need to believe you're beautiful, on the inside too. no... no not beautiful. Wonderful... enchanting,Lovely so lovely, You need to believe it, okay? promise me" his hoarse voice urges me desperately. My heart pounding in my chest, my mind replaying everything in my head as the words slip off my tongue.

"I promise"

The words have barely left my mouth and met the air when his face moves to mine. His forehead pressed on mine, our noses touching, I feel his hot breath tickle my lips. His gaze wanders from mine to my lips, his teeth biting his own. When his eyes reach mine again they hold a question in them, one I never realised I was yearning for until now. His hand gently clasps my face once again, his eyes never leaving mine as he inches closer. Our lips slowly meeting, gently moving in sync, full of nothing but tenderness. My heart pounds in my chest, like a lion in a cage.

My once Churning stomach has ignited, lighting my body with a burning flame as my desperation to deepen the kiss seeps through me. My hands snake around his neck as his move to my waist, sensing my greed his tongue swipes over my bottom lip, I grant permission, his tongue entering my mouth. His body moving as we part breathless, his hands grabbing my hips as his eyes fill with the same neediness coursing through me. I lie back, his body hovers over mine as my fingers run through his hair, his lips colliding with mine.

His grip on my hips tightening as my hands roam his body, slipping under his shirt and tracing his toned torso. stopping at his chest, I feel his heartbeat hammering against my hand, a smile takes over my face. Pulling away, his eyes look into mine, into me.

His own lips curving up into a smile, the fire burning through me has melted away. Neither of us daring to break the silence that has fallen, all that's to be heard is our messy breathing until a giggle escapes my lips. I can't control myself as Shaun bursts out laughing, a snort escaping my lips leaves us in hysterics. Rolling off me Shaun clutches his stomach, eye streaming with tears, our laughter roaring through the room.

Calming down, the silence falls between us once more, as the realisation hits me. We just kissed? what does that mean... are we, what, how? My head starts to ache, so I sit up to scurry under the covers when I'm met with a sleeping Shaun. Not wanting to disturb him, I quietly scoot closer to him, his body shifts turning towards me, his arms wrapping around me, pulling my back against his chest. Nestling against him I close my eyes and feel sleep coming for me when I remember Shaun still has to pack. The warmth of his embrace is too cosy to move, we can do it in the morning, we can deal with all of this in the morning, I reassure my mind, as i let go of the tiny piece of reality I had clutched on to.

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