colorless

- 08 -

ㅁ purple ㅁ

i was confused on why you kept teaching me the same colors.

you taught me purple for the second time.

"purple has more than two meanings?"

purple - evokes gloom and sad feelings. can cause frustration.

but you told me that this was dark purple.

this is when you confirmed my fears about you.

i definitely had the feeling of frustration and sadness.

i didn't know how much longer i could be with you.

why didn't you tell me sooner?

i might have been able to help you.

if you went to the doctor sooner.

if you told people when you finally did.

you're parents took it by suprise too.

because you didn't tell anyone.

you tried to fight by yourself.

but you didn't have enough money to fix it.

so you didn't try.

you refused to let people worry about you.

how do you think they felt when they found out?

i can still here those words repeating in my head.

those four, horrible, heartbreaking words.

"soojung, i have cancer."