colorless

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ㅁ white ㅁ

it took me awhile to realize that i hated being in a world without you.

everything went back to how it was before i met you.

people mocking me.

people laughing.

just because i can't see.

how could people be so rude and inconsiderate?

the boys were here for me though.

but there was only so much that they could do.

i couldn't take it anymore.

white - associated with light, goodness, innocence, purity. considered to be the color of perfection.

that's the day that i decided.

i wouldn't live in a world without love, without color.

without you.

all i remember was screaming and people trying to pull me out of the water.

but they couldn't.

but then i saw nothing but white.

i taught myself that color.

and out of the beautiful color.

i saw you.

for the first time.

you looked happy to see me yet sad.

how can you still be sad?

i never understood.

you hugged me and whispered.

"i love you but you need to wake up."

i held onto you, never wanting to let go.

never again.

suddenly my grip loosened.

you were drifting away from me.

i remember screaming in fear and frustration.

they took you away from me again.

i then remember seeing everything go black.

why black?

i never wanted to experience that horrible color again.

all of the sudden i could hear crying and the beeping of a heart monitor.

i laid there.

refusing to open my eyes because i knew that i would open them to the same colorless place.

i could still hear you saying wake up.

so i opened them.

i still could see nothing.

it was the same.

but you never wanted this from me.

you wanted me to be happy and live my life.

so that's what i did.

once i accepted the fact, i saw the entire world in color.

"i love you."

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