How To Love

Chapter five

HazelPOV
After talking with the girls we decided to walk around the way since I haven't been here in forever

"so do you plan on telling your mom you back ?" Mimi asked me as we walked to the park

"no , fuck her she don't need to be worried about what I'm doing"I said rolling my eyes

"she's still your mom g , whatever happened can't be that bad" Ava said to me and I just rolled my eyes because I never told them the real reason I left they just think I left cause bibby

"if I tell y'all what happen please promise you won't tell the guys especially not Herb" I said to them cause I know the boys would flip they shit

"we promise " they both said

"it was the night after everything happened with bibby, I was in the house crying all day then Brandon came by trying to say sorry and come in but me being so angry I said no and slammed the door in his face as I was going to my room I heard my mom n her boyfriend Devin arguing but I didn't care I went to my room .. then he came in and I told him to leave but he wouldn't listen ! He start touching and grabbing me so I screamed for my mom but she came in my room and said "baby be a big girl"and shut my door and i screamed and screamed for her or bibby and he kept hitting me and trying take my pants off but I was fighting until he punched me in my face hard and before I blacked out I heard him say "you let that white boy fuck now it's my turn" and when I woke up it was blood on my legs and bed so I called my aunt and ran away to live with her" I told them and we all had tears on our face and they just hugged me " that's why I hate her! She let him do that to me! To her daughter!" I said balling my eyes out now

"baby I'm so sorry you that you go thru that that but you have to tell the boys sooner or later momma" Mimi said rubbing my back I just nodded cause I know she was right. Once we got back to the house I sat next to Herb and laid my head on his shoulder

"what's wrong lil bit?" He asked me

"nothing I just love y'all " I said hugging him tight as tears fell silently from my eyes

"we love you too but what's wrong fav" man man asked me I looked at the girls and they nodded

"Brandon go hold her" Ava told him he came and sat me on his lap while Mimi rubbed my back

" I have to tell you guys the real reason I left ..." after I told them the story Brandon was holding me tight

" why didn't you just come here lil bit?" Herb asked in a soft voice

" because I knew you guys especially you n bibby would've went after him and I was so scared I didn't want anything to happen to y'all I love y'all to much" I did crying more and Herb just came held me as bibby rubbed my back

"I got you , I'll never let anyone hurt you again " he said as he kissed my forehead I laid my head back on his chest and fell asleep.
BibbyPOV
When Hazel feel asleep I put her in Herb bed

" I can't believe my lil sister went thru that .. my lil bit and I didn't protect her" Herb said basically to himself while smoking , I knew he was heated cause that's like his blood

"her momma ain't shit she better hope I don't see her I'm punch her in her shit " man man said

"bucks you cool?" Mally asked cause I was so quite

"nawl man .. that night I was about to climb thru her window but I was like f it and went to Ashley house.. if I wasn't so worried about getting my dick wet that shit wouldn't have happened to her" I said shaking my head at myself

"we gotta find that nigga "I told them and they just nodded .

Hazel is the only girl I care this much for besides my sister n mom on folks I live this girl but I'm so scared to hurt her again all because I don't know how to love and now she's scared to love because of me , I hate to see her cry man I hate it especially because something I did like shanty really care for a nigga not a nigga money i don't know what I would do if I lost her friendship, her smile, her laugh .. just her period I'd lose myself. I went upstairs to lay with her just to hold her , as soon as I laid down she put her head on my chest

" it wasn't your fault you didn't know .. Brandon don't ever leave me" she said as she looked up at me I kissed her lips and forehead "I'm not going anywhere " I told her as we went to sleep.