Can I Be Fixed

Chapter 3

Niall's P.O.V.
Alright guys it's time for ONE. LAST. SONG!" I screamed,the lights blinding my eyes. I was answered with ear splitting yells as the music started.
Shut the door
Turn the lights off
I wanna be with you
I wanna feel your love
I couldn't help thinking of her. I really did want it to end, but not like that. The fight last night was horrid, and I couldn't sleep at all.
I wanna lay beside you
I can not hide this
Even though I tried
I saw her in the audience, tears streaming down her face. This only proves them right. It proves them all right. I'm shallow. I'm self centered. I'm a pop star. How can I defend myself, say that I have feelings. How can I say that I am a decent human being when I broke a girl.
Heart beats harder
Time escapes me
Trembling hands touch skin
It makes this harder
Liam's voice cut of my thoughts. I could tell he was thinking of Danielle. I wish I could have a perfect love. I wish I could have feeling for somebody. Anybody.
And The tears stream down my face
If we could only have this life for one more day
Of we could only turn back time
You know I'll be
Your life your voice your reason to be
My love my heart is breathing for this
Moments in time I'll find the word to say
Before you leave me today
Why am I captured? Why am I stuck here? Why have I fallen into this trap? My part is coming up, but I don't remember how to feel, let alone sing. But singing is a second nature to me, my escape from my confined world. The only feeling I still know. Music makes it a all worth something.
Close the door
Turn the key
Don't wanna be reminded
Don't wanna be seen
Don't wanna be without you
My judgments clouded like tonight's sky
Girls screamed and cried with joy, the younger ones clinging to adoring fathers, the elders gripping friends. I bring people together. My sorrowful presence somehow brings people joy. How is this world so strange?
The song ends eventually and my mates say their goodbyes. They handle this so well. They are truly my idols. I think I would be long gone if I were doing this alone. As I made my way to the dressing rooms, I almost felt happy.
"Hey mate, I'm knackered." exclaimed a sweaty Liam "Where's Nathalie?"
He asked innocently. Oh yeah, I'm not happy, I'm a terrible person I thought to myself at the mention if her name. The guilt took over and my hollow world went black.
A/N
Hey guys! I know I haven't updated in FOREVER but I had a lot going on at school :( anyways... I'm here now so YAY. I know it's old and I mean REALLY OLD news by now, but who cried when Gramma Tomlinson died? I wanna know if I'm a loner on that one. Kk got to go, but I'll try to update soon!
Mwa!
-Meg