Today I woke up to sobs. My sister's own sobs. I know her like I know my own mind. I will choose her happiness over mine every time. But I can't fix this one. Jordan just died. Her best friend succumbed to cancer, and there is nothing I can do to soothe her. Jordan has been ill with lung cancer since she was 5, 3 years ago.
Olivia says she wants to die. But God won't let her do that. He will only give her more time. Because she needs to tell Jordan's story. Her story deserves to be told. So does every other kid who has ever had cancer.
At 8 she shouldn't have to worry about wanting to kill herself. She should be out in the woods eating sticks or shit like that. Not having to deal with funerals and death. Kind of like how kids shouldn't have to have cancer. But it happens anyway.
In other news, my sweet 16 is coming up in a month, and I'm really excited. I'm not like those other girls, wanting a party and a band. All I'm going to do is stay in with Savannah, Erin and Kylie to watch a marathon of Harry Potter and listen to You'll Be Back. It will be the best day known to man.
That's all for now. I have to drive to the store with a bad sticker to get Olivia something. I risk having my meeting with the RMV pushed back and getting my car towed but I don't care.
All luck,
Ella
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