COMPLEX|BTS|NamJin|Boyxboy

Missing

I walk up the last step breathing deeply. I've made it, to the front steps and I'm still alive. I feel so stupid for being here but I need an explanation. I thought I was better off not knowing but for weeks that's all I could think about.

I knock quietly a first, giving myself time to rethink what I want. But unfortunately that knock was louder than I thought and now I can hear footsteps traveling closer.

The door opens seconds later making me look at my shoes. I coughed awkwardly before looking up. "C-Can we talk?"

Namjoon stares at me with wide eyes before nodding quickly. "Yes, of course."

I walk inside and he leads my upstairs to his room. He sits at the edge of the bed and pats the space next to him. "What do you want to talk about?"

"Umm," I bite my lip before I start telling him everything that happened during the time he was ignoring me. He doesn't say anything as I speak but he sometimes nods or shakes his head.

When I finish I'm extremely nervous to hear what he has to say. I'm half expecting him to confirm my fears and tell me he never liked me like that, but I hope that doesn't happen.

"Jin, I never meant to make you feel like that. I-I was just nervous about something and I thought that if I separated myself from you then my thoughts would change." He's staring ahead of himself as he speaks. "I guess I wasn't thinking clearly. I'm sorry."

"But what about that orange haired boy you're dating?" Just thinking about it makes my stomach sink.

Namjoon's eyes widened and he quickly shakes his head. "We are not dating, that would be weird."

"Why?"

He chuckled, tilting his head. "Because Jimin's my cousin."

My mouth makes an o shape and a blush creeps onto my cheeks. "Well, that's...interesting."

He takes my hand in his and plays with my fingers. "I'm really sorry, I hope you don't hate me."

"I don't hate you. I just wanna know what you were nervous about. You can tell me anything, you know that."

He nods, letting his dimples pierce his cheeks. "I will...just not now, I'm not ready yet."

I pout slightly wrapping my arms around him. "It's fine, I'm just glad we're back together."

He wraps his arms around my waist and nuzzles his face into my neck. "Me too, I miss you so much."