Chapter 6

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I wake up to the sound of quiet sobbing. It's not me, I know my own sobs all too well. I open my eyes and glance at the clock. It's 3:37, far too early for me to be awake. I roll over to face Chloe who has her back to me. I watch her movements, and from the light of the moon shining through my window, I can tell she is sobbing pretty hard, probably trying not to wake me. "Hey Chloe, what's wrong?" No answer. "Chlo..." I say rubbing her back. "Whats the matter." There was a long pause before she started to speak. "I'm not good enough." "What do you mean you're not good enough?" She rolled over to face me. "I'm just not. If I was good enough, he wouldn't hurt me." Her face was soaked in tears, her ginger hair tossed and messy as she lay there next to me bawling her eyes out. "Chloe, you are good enough." I say as she cries harder, and I pull her head into my shoulder and wrap my arms around her. She falls into me with ease as I hold her tightly. "Shhh." I hush her sobs and stroke her hair. She continues to cry so I begin singing.

"You trembled like you'd seen a ghost
And I gave in
I lacked the things you need the most,
You said where have you been?

You wasted all that sweetness to run and hide
I wonder why
I remind you of the days you poured your heart into
But you never tried

I've fallen from grace
Took a blow to my face
I've loved and I've lost
I've loved and I've lost

Explosions...on the day you wake up
Needing somebody and you've learned
It's okay to be afraid
But it will never be the same
It will never be the same

You left my soul bleeding in the dark
So you could be king
The rules you set are still untold to me
And I've lost my faith in everything

The nights you could cope,
Your intentions were gold
But the mountains will shake
I need to know I can still make

Explosions...on the day you wake up
Needing somebody and you've learned
It's okay to be afraid
But it will never be the same

And as the floods move in
And your body starts to sink
I was the last thing on your mind
I know you better than you think
'Cause it's simple darling, I gave you warning
Now everything you own is falling from the sky in pieces
So watch them fall with you, in slow motion
I pray that you'll find peace of mind
And I'll find you another time
I'll love you, another time

Explosions...on the day you wake up
Needing somebody and you've learned
It's okay to be afraid
But it will never be the same"

*The Next Morning*

I wake up entangled in Chloe. Her head is on my chest and my hand is woven in her red locks. She is still asleep so I don't move in fear of waking her up. I look down and notice my hand on her waist, and under the covers, her legs bent over mine. She looks comfy, and I'm glad to see her tears dried. I gotta say, Chloe adds a comfort to lying in bed that I've never felt before. Her warm body pressed against mine makes me shiver. She feels so good. She begins to move a little bit and I remove my hand from her waist. Her beautiful blue eyes blink open and  I stare at her as she awakens from her slumber. "Beca?" She says. "Good morning Chloe." She sits up and whips around trying to find a clock. "It's 10:30." I tell her. "Oh my god." She says pressing her hands to her temple. "I have the worst headache." "Here." I say reaching to my nightstand and grabbing her some asprin. "Take this." We sit for a minute as Chloe holds her water in her lap. "I'm sorry about last night. I didn't intend to get that drunk, and I didn't know who else to call. I don't really have any friends." "Hey it's okay I don't either." "The friends I do have are Jake's friends." Her voice slows down on the word friends. "Shit! I gotta get home... I... Jake's gonna kill me. He's gonna- oh my God, I really need to go-" A sick expression appears on her face and she makes a run for the bathroom. I follow her and grab her hair just as she is about to hurl everything in her body into the porcelain bowl. "You're not going home." I say as she gives it all up. She stands up, wiping her mouth and flushing. "Beca I have to!" She begins to cry as she walks back into my bedroom. "He's gonna kill me." She sits on the edge of the bed and puts her head in her hands. I walk over and sit next to her. "Chloe," I put a hand on her back. "Do you remember what happened last night?" "Only a little. Why?" She says through her tears. "You said something last night about Jake ditching you. Do you know where he went?" She cries harder. "He...he- we we're dancing and then he left. I went and sat at the bar and a long time passed and he was still gone. I went into the bathroom only to find him fucking some other little whore in one of the stalls. I drank a lot after that." "Chloe," I start, "You gotta break up with him." "I can't!" She yells, and sobs some more. "He won't let me." After a minute she says quietly; "I'm trapped Beca. He won't let me leave. He abuses me, in ways you couldn't imagine." We sit there for another minute as Chloe calms down. "I think I can imagine." I say quietly taking a deep breath, staring at the heater vent under the window. "My dad was abusive." I feel Chloe staring at me.   "I'm so sorry Becs." I nod. "Yeah, me too. And I can't let this happen to you anymore." I stand up and begin pacing. "There's nothing you can do-" She says wiping her nose. "How long have you guys been together?" "8 months." "Has he always been abusive?" She shakes her head. "Not until 2 months in. He got addicted to drugs. Heroin. Cocaine. Even weed. He tried to get me into it, but I refused and tried to leave him. That was the first time he hit me. Told me if I ever try to leave again he'd end my life. If I snitched I would 'regret it.'" "Chlo, you have to go to the police with this." I tell her calmly. "I can't Beca, I'm too afraid." "Then I will." I stand up and walk towards the bedroom door. "No, Beca wait!" She says, and I turn around. "Not now, just... please stay with me." We stare at each other for quite some time. Her crystal eyes are full of fear and tears. I walk back over to the bed and sit down next to her. "It'll be alright." I tell her pulling her into a hug. "I promise."

A/N Song: Explosions- Ellie Goulding

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