Malec Stories

Forever

Forever

A/N: PLEASE READ!!! Okay, guys, I’m not gonna lie.  I’m 99.99% sure this will make you cry. It certainly made me cry while writing it, so grab your tissues and crying pillows! Hope you enjoy it!

To make the effect even better, listen to “Gone, gone, gone” by Phillip Phillips while reading. Oh, how I enjoy torturing you all!!! >:)

I promise happiness, glitter, and sunshine in the next few one shots! I just gotta get my angst out. ):

This one shot is in celebration of the COHF cover reveal today!!!!!! It’s so beautiful! Now what we really need is the actual book. -_- Okay, I’ll shut up! Carry on, I’ll meet you at the bottom.

Disclaimer: Cassandra Clare owns these two beautiful people. ); And a couple pouty mouth words included.

Magnus scoffed, “It’s only a few months. She’ll be back before you know it, stop whining,” he said, turning back to the spell book he was trying to concentrate on. The current residents of the New York Institute had asked him to conjure a spell for them. Because they are acquaintances, he came even though he took the day off. Plus, it gave him an excuse to visit the Institute without seeming pathetic. He promised himself he would go there as least as possible. The memories were too painful afterwards. Jason, a boy around 17 that moved to the Institute when his parents died at a young age was droning on about how his girlfriend, Julie, was going to Idris with her family for 6 months on clave business. It was extremely irritating, thought Magnus who was trying to search for a spell. Hearing his voice, the boy turned to Magnus and replied. He tended to act like a drama queen, and usually Magnus tolerated him. He knew the boy had a good heart, but today was not a good day for Magnus.  

“Magnus. You don’t know what it’s like. It’s only been a week, and it’s so freaking lonely, and I’m afraid she’s gonna leave me for some guy-” he was cut off by the sister of his girlfriend. “Oh, shut up, Jason, she’s not gonna-” she began, but was cut off by Magnus, who found the voice to reply.

 Magnus slammed the spell book closed, and stood up.

“And you don’t think I get lonely sometimes?” Magnus said in a low, incredulous voice. Everyone in the room looked at him, surprised at his tone of voice. What he just said blew Magnus off the edge. He was tired of hearing about all of their problems. Tired of keeping his emotions inside. Of the loneliness. Of the pain. He let it all out.

“You should be happy that that’s all you have to deal with. And, yes, I do understand, probably more so than any of you. I haven’t been with anybody for over 100 years. You don’t know what it’s like to be like this. Immortal. To have to live knowing anybody you get attached to is just going to grow old and die while you’re stuck in time,” Magnus said, not noticing that tears began to sting his eyes, “cursed to be the hideous creature I am,” he scoffed dryly, “I wonder why I never learn. I get so lonely, I find another group of people to call family that I have to watch die. And I’m sorry if I seem like a bitch. My husband died this day 100 years ago, that’s why I said I was busy today,” he paused for a moment, the tears falling like waterfalls now, “I still wake up every morning, looking over at his side of the bed, expecting to find him sleeping peacefully beside me, to then be hit with the realization that he’s dead and I’m never gonna see him again. I’m still just as in love with him as I was when he was alive. Although I may seem like some slut that throws parties every night and hooks up to get some kind of human interaction, I’m not. You’ll see her in a few months, it’s not the end of the world. Julie is a sweet girl, and she would never do such a thing. Be happy she’s even coming back. So don’t try and tell me I don’t understand.”

All of the teens in the room stood there speechless. Some with tears threatening to fall down their cheeks. Magnus blushed, realizing what he had just done. Before Jason could apologize, or anyone could say anything, Magnus ran out of the room, out the door and strait to his flat. He finally broke down on the steps leading to his loft door, collapsing on the rickety steps. He was suddenly hit with a flash back of memories. Of every moment he spent with the blue-eyed shadowhunter. Each and every day that he was with him. Ending with the memory of his first kiss with the shadowhunter, right on the step he was sitting on. The tears seemed to never stop flowing. Magnus just sat there. He didn’t have the physical or the emotional energy to even move, so he slept there till the next morning, when he had an appointment to get to. That’s how it is. He had to get up, dust himself off, and keep moving. That’s how life was for him, and still is. Shrugging on a sparkly trench coat, Magnus smiled fondly at the memory of his blue-eyed, ebony haired, shy, beautiful, good-hearted, darling, Alec. Even though he misses him with all his heart, the memory of Alec, and the love they shared, was enough to drive his will to live. It’s what he would have wanted. Magnus looked up to the heavens, thinking they are lucky to have the perfect angel. With one last sigh, he closed the door, bounded down the stairs, out the door, and into the bust streets of New York, off to see his client.

Still love you, darling. Thought Magnus, looking up to the beautiful summer sky. Forever.

A/N: So….. I’m literally in tears right now. The song + writing this fic = me crying, clutching my Malec hoody for comfort. I’m sorry, really. I PROMISE! The next few will be happy and fluffy, okay? J  I hope you liked it, at least?? Please, tell me what you think.

Sorry I’ve been gone so long! I’ve been dealing with unnecessary exams in school just to see how much we’ve learned, which just takes away days we could actually be learning….. And I went to Allstate in Florida!!! For those that don’t know, you have to take 2 singing auditions that require rigorous training, studying, and hours a week for months against over a thousand girls all over the state. Only 316 girls, or guys, get in, and I and 3 friends got in this year!! If accepted, you sing in a choir of 316 girls in one huge performance in January!! It was so much fun, and I’m really proud of myself for getting in, and it makes me feel like I’m a good singer, so that’s good. (:

Happy TMI: COHF cover reveal day!!!!!!! :D ^.^

Love you all! Till next time…..  ~themortalfangirl