True Colors

Part 1. Jessica

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I could feel my chest harden, my heart rate quicken, and my hands become sweaty as I looked at the scene unfolding in front of me... My breaths became short and I felt a headache start to pound against my temple, I was frozen in both fear, shock and horror at what I was seeing, A surprise... I was supposed to surprise him by going home early I stopped by the liquor store quickly to get him his favorite bottle of wine, White. Although I had a taste for Red I always got the white because that's what his favorite was.

I was quite coming in, I really wanted this to be a good surprise he had lost his job a couple months ago and had been having a hard time... I looked down at the small ring that sometimes slipped of my petite finger from being slightly larger... I looked back at the scene in front of me taking a rather large deep breath and letting it out slowly.

I felt the ring slipping off and the shock slowly wearing off, I felt a feeling I had felt many times before and the tears start to pool but I was still frozen in pace as my husband slept with two other women all too caught up in the moment to realize I was there...

Memories flashed across my eyes, the messages I had found but ignored... him staying out all the time even after he got fired... the way he ignored me all the time and wouldn't look me in the eyes, this wasn't the first time though. No I had caught him in this position many times before both man and women and sometimes multiple of them at a time...

Was I not good enough? Had I not given myself to him enough for him to seek comfort other places? I hadn't told anyone about it for the fear they would tell me to leave him or worse blame me...

I raised a hand whipping the tears and slowly backing away from the guest room, I needed the comfort of my own bed and slumped over to our room, my heart was still beating widely and the feeling that had many times before would not go away, I laid down and let out a few ugly sobs...

Maybe it was because of what I told him so many months ago, before he was fired... maybe that was my fault also? I hadn't a clue but somehow it was... he must had wanted those others because I couldn't give him what we needed...

I couldn't help him grow our little family so he needed the comfort from others... yes it was all my fault.

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A small groan woke me from my slumber, and I looked around to see him getting dressed hickeys and scratch marks littering his whole torso. "Where are you going?" I croaked out my voice deep from the sleep I had been consumed in less than a minute ago dreaming about a perfect life with him, children and myself...

"Out" was his only reply as he buttoned the last button of his shirt and exited, I could hear the two girls giggling and talking rather loudly about going out for lunch... my chest tightened again they usually left after intercourse...

I could hear the door open, and then slam shut and I closed my eyes tightly suppressing the memory of my husband in bed with others...

I let my head drop, but Just as quick threw myself out of bed to shower and get dressed... I picked out a light blue dress with match blue under where and left to the rather small bathroom and let the warmish water sooth my broken soul... I got out drying myself off and dressing rather quickly before taking my purse and checking around everything was still there other than the 100$ I had taken out the other day for grocery's... I could feel my heart twist up knowing who took it and why...

I went to the living room and found a small crunched up note, "Jessica I'll be out all day, possible night" the writing was small and messy and I knew who wrote it...

I took another breath and walked out the door making sure it was locked before sighing as he had also taken our car... the bus it is again.

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I let out another yawn, and finished up all the phone calls with a bunch of "I'll talk to him"- 'sorry he's busy' kind of things, and sipping away at the cheap coffee I got from downstairs. It tasted like crap but did the job for keeping me awake at work. "Jessica please come see me" my boss Rob called.

"Yes?" my voice comes out soft and shy as my nerves were running high today, "I'll be retiring soon, and my Son's Mitchel, and Alexander will be coming to take over my position" I nodded taking out my small note pad.

"You've been here for what 10 years now?" I nodded letting a small smile slip thinking about it. "Yes sir" I nodded and he scratched his head slowly.

"I would like you too show them around, I mean they've been here before and all but like help them out they've already started managing a few other companies I own so it shouldn't be hard for a couple Single men like them" he said adding a small wink at the end causing me to frown.

"Of course sir I'll do my best"

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