I haven't really wanted to talk about my past when I was young or when I was so stupid to not notice he was taring me apart by piece by piece. When I was with this guy named justice that I thought was the love of my life. I never really notice I was losing friends by not really talking to them at all and not seeing them or only just being with him. I really regret a lot of things I did with him and now I just have a huge amount of self hatred of what I am and just who i am and ect. I just want to say I with i could fix the friendships I have lost or is losing.
I want to fix a good friendship I had with him but I guess I can't because it's so hard to even talk to him and all I ever ask is that we could become friends again. I think if he would listen to what I have to say he would understand me but I don't think its ever gonna happen. I've missed so much things with all my friends I just can't even think I'm a part of there lives anymore because of what I've become and what I did. I feel so sorry to all he people I have hurt in the proses of what I've become and sorry to what I've done to loose my friendships.
I wish I could fix what I did because I just miss all the fun I had and the memory's I have had, but now I haven't made any memory's in so long that I just feel like I'm not even friends with them. I think that I'm not even there even tho I've been there the whole time but nobody notices me anymore.
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My thoughts # book 2
Teen Fiction(Warning this book may be a trigger to a young age or a other Reader) A book about me ish and problems in life of depression and maybe some Love and hope
