So I've been asked for an update a few times so here it is...
Well things are really really hard right now. I'm almost positive this is the worst it's ever been in my life. It's just an every day struggle. My bad thoughts are coming back a lot more. Lots of days there's not one thing to eat... So I have to go about 1 day or so without eating. I mean I have a bad Eating disorder so it's not that bad. But still it sucks when I'm really hungry and wanna eat but can't. But uhm so be thankful for a roof over your head. Be thankful for the food in your fridge. Because in one blink of an eye you can loose it all. That's what happened to me.
My anxiety has gotten really really bad. I get upset and can't talk for like an hour or so it usually lasts. And if like my mom keeps asking me something and I'm forced to talk I end up yelling. Idk why is can't even help it. It's weird and it sucks. We have been here about 8-9 months I think. Almost a year. I'm honestly really beyond sick of being homeless. I have bad memory but if I haven't explained what it's like here, it's a 1 bed apt my grandpa and his gf sleep in. Then me and my mom sleep in the living room and usually I sleep in the chair now and she sleeps on the couch. I can't leave this apt bc it's a horrible neighborhood /: and I only have 1 friend that I hang out with. But uhm yah. Idk I'm hoping things get better really really soon because I don't know how much longer I can take this >.< just gonna cross my fingers and hope for the best....
On the bright side I haven't been getting cyber bullied really.. I mean the "ew" comments or the "gross bye" things like that I'm used to. Other than that no bullying. (:
Everyone I'm still here for you. Don't hesitate to contact me. I care.
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Stay strong everyone <33
