Stardom (RusGer)

Roleplay Day 13

Ivan didn't respond anymore he just hugged Ludwig, hugged him tight and sometimes wiped his nose on his already dirty coat. He would never let him die ... never ! He just cuddles him so tight Ludwig can't move anymore "I love you... I can't let you die. Neither can I let you go, I'd die without you ... I need you Ludwig, I need you so badly ... I'll keep you safe. I'll buy you a golden cage and make sure you're fine ..."

At this tight hug, Ludwig whimpered and struggled to breath but didn't say a word until Ivan then mentioned the golden cage. "You'll buy me a what?!" He asked, seeming almost shocked except he was only mildly surprised. This idea had never been beyond Ivan, of course. "But I have things to do tomorrow!" He then whimpered, although he did suppose that the cage would take a while to be delivered if Ivan truly was serious.

Ivan smiles, of course it's a sad smile and it makes his face look even more horrible "A golden cage ... a beautiful golden cage that you will never leave again. Don't worry, I'll take good care of you ... but the cage will be my safety you won't run away." He takes Ludwigs hands to kiss them even they are handcuffed "You don't have to go anywhere tomorrow ... you will stay here, stay by my side forever ..."

Ludwig whimpered at the look of Ivan's face, watching that sad smile with a horrified expression. "No! Ivan no!" He exclaimed, crying softly as Ivan claimed to keep him by his side forever. "i-i will return so that you can put me into the cage but I have a massage tomorrow!" He didn't know what to say or do and was in a genuine panic.

"I can't risk that anymore Ludwig... I'm sorry. If I loose you again, I don't know what to do ... the risk is too high, I can't." He gently rubs Ludwigs cheek and stands up from the bed "I'll massage you tomorrow... after dancing lesson." He blushes a little and then starts the research for the perfect cage. It has to be big, but fit in a room. Like a gigantic bird cage ! Oh, Ludwig will be his little golden bird who can't fly away !

Ludwig gulped and tried to think of a way to escape, his poor heart thudding in his chest. "you can't lock me away forever!" He screamed, shaking his head. "I'm not some bird! You will not ruin me like this!"

"I won't break you Ludwig... but this is the only way to make sure you won't leave me and won't kill me ! It would ... it would kill me if you ran away again ..." He looks into Ludwigs blue eyes "I would do anything ! Anything to make you stay and it will never be enough so I have to force you... I'm sorry." He sighs quiet and strokes through Ludwigs hair.

"You will break me! Don't you understand? You're breaking me!" Ludwig screamed, sobbing loudly as he looked at Ivan. "j-just at least let me out... One last time tomorrow" he then begged, looking genuinely upset and scared.

Ivan growls angrily but after all he's still just a silly lovesick dog "I'll let you out one last time tomorrow... who do you have to meet and where? I'll come with you. I have to make sure you stay with me. I'm gonna let you out one last time tomorrow, if you use that chance and try to escape me, I'm going to put you in a basement instead of a golden cage. I'll do to you what I've been thinking about since months... don't make me angry."

"I'll want some one away from you... At least in a different room" Ludwig whispered quietly, scared shitless of what Ivan said that he would do. He would take the risk anyway.. "but you can come. And... You are..." Ludwig just looked disgusted and turned away from Ivan.

Ivan whimpers again, it's a sound coming deep from his chest and sounds like a dying puppy "We will go out tomorrow and you can meet whoever you want to meet ... but I'll stay by our side the whole time. I won't leave you alone again ... I'm sorry if I disgust you, I'll try my best to stay invisible okay ?" He looks with red eyes down at Ludwig and locks the bedroom "Sleep now ... don't worry I won't touch you tonight."

"Shut the fuck up, don't talk to me!" Ludwig simply scowled evilly, his eyes narrowed and his teeth bared before he looked away from Ivan and tried to get to sleep. "You worthless piece of shit. You can't even let me have my last proper massage by myself!" Ludwig then watched with a forced scowl as Ivan locked their bedroom door and returned, causing Ludwig to shuffle away as far as possible. "And stop crying too. Manipulative, murderious, monstrous men like you aren't allowed to cry!"

Ivan just nods quietly and wipes his tears away. He knows he's not supposed to cry, he can tolerate lots of pain but somehow Ludwigs words hurt him more than anything else "I'm sorry..." He whispers and lays down in the bed. He doesn't try to get any closer to Ludwig, he's too scared to get pushed away and shouted at. He doesn't want Ludwig to keep shouting at him, he's supposed to love him ! Ivan knows it's stupid and risky, but he decides to let Ludwig talk alone to whoever he wants to talk to he still has the GPS collar so nothing can go wrong right ? And maybe it will make Ludwig smile at him ?

Now happier that Ivan had gone silent, Ludwig curled up tightly to keep warm, since he wouldn't allow those big arms to wrap around him anymore, and slowly began to fall asleep. However, he really did find it difficult. His mind raced with worry and thoughts of what could happen if he was caught on this daring attempt to escape! Luckily, they were in a hostel so Ivan couldn't exactly lock him in a basement, or get away with keeping a giant bird cage inside.... but what if he already bought a house for them?! No matter how much Ludwig tried to convince himself that all would be well, his mind always dashed back to the question of 'what if?, until an hour later of pure silence, he fell asleep.

Ivan didn't sleep that night, his eyes were wide awake and his heart too. He could still feel it's beating, steadily and hard in his chest, and still it felt like his chest was empty, there was nothing just the black hole that was sucking him inside when Ludwig wasn't around. He needs Ludwig to stay sane, to keep control ! He decided to stay in Venice, he would buy them a small but beautiful house with a boat ... and if he forces Ludwig to live with him for long enough, maybe he will fall in love with him again ? He blushes, covers his face and moves with his feet under the blanket when he remembers his first time with Ludwig... oh, if he only meant what he said ...

Around 7 O'clock that next morning, Ludwig woke up with a yawn before just going silent, thinking. It was funny to think that before Ivan ruined him, he would be prancing about and singing to the morning like an idiot. But not now. Now he just laid in bed beside having to drag himself out, trudging over the wooden flooring and forcing Ivan to uncuff him before changing into some male clothes, his eyes narrowed.

Ivan uncuffed Ludwig and then rose from his bed as soon as Ludwig did, his eyes still red from crying. He too pulled on some clothes, wiping his eyes with the back of his sleeve before he looked at Ludwig again. "I have bought a house for us... it's old but beautiful and has beautiful views of the canals and city" he murmured quietly.

"Whatever" Ludwig hissed, making sure he had all that he needed before just leaving. "I'm off and you are NOT coming with me!" He exclaimed angrily before walking out and slamming the hostel door behind him.

Ivan just nods quietly and let's Ludwig go. He may sure the electricity still works on the collar so in case Ludwig tries to go to the police he will be shocked. And Ivan also knows that Ludwig won't be that stupid. No prison and hospital can keep Ivan away from Ludwig ! Luca waits already at his home for Ludwig to visit. He really hopes he will be able to help Ludwig! He's such a nice guy ...

As soon as he was out of Ivan's sight, Ludwig pulled his mask on and began racing down towards where he knew Luca was living. He was so excited! Maybe he would finally be free! The German could barely believe it and didn't waste any time on running into the town when suddenly, he gasped. It would be much too dangerous to go to Lucas house! If Ivan saw that he was there before going missing, that is the place were he would go first!
With this thought in mind, Ludwig soon just ran into a payphone and punched in Lucas number before waiting for the stripper to pick up.