Don't Leave Me

Chapter 24

Matt's POV

It had been almost two days that Alexa was in the hospital, they wanted to make sure everything was okay with her before i brought her home, we had cancled the rest of the tour, dissopointing many fans. In my books Alexa and her health comes first and always will. Everyone was pretty down about the whole thing, including Jimmy, none of us really felt like being happy or joking around, Even more so when Alexa was in our precnece, we were afraid we might upset her. I got to take her back onto the tour bus today, we are getting our daughters ashes, we had named her Angel, because it seemed to fit our situation. Though she was not with us she was still our little angel. As i went back into the room after grabbing Alexa a salad for lunch i saw her sitting a chair by the window holding a pink teddy bear the Hospital had given her with Angel's name written on the paw, she was in such a daze i don't think she heard me walk in. i knelt down infront of her taking her hands in mine which made her jump "Baby girl, it's time to go. We can go home now" She just stared at me for a moment and i saw the tears spring to her eyes, and as one started to decend down her cheek i wipped it away "Everything will be okay. We will get through this together" she nodded and stood up with me, wrapping her arms around my neck she barried her face in my chest and started to cry. i rubbed her back soothingly and kissed her cheek. "Nothing's ever going to be the same" she said as she sobbed into my now soaked shirt.

Alexa's POV

As we walked back onto the bus i felt the eyes of everybody on me, i sighed and just looked up at them and forced a small smile. Jimmy ran over and hugged me to him i don't think he quite knew what to do, but he always hated when anyone was upset and tried to cheer them up and i think he realized that this time, he wouldn't be able to cheer me up. i hugged him back and closed my eyes tightly. i saw my brother sitting beside Brian and he gave me a small smile. i looked up as i felt matt place his hand on the small of my back "Want to go lay down baby girl?, it's pretty late" he said and thats when i looked at the time. it was around 11:57pm and i was exhusted from the crying i had done all day. i nodded and the guys all made room for me to walk back to the bunk. i stripped down and slipped into some PJ's and got in. i smiled a bit as Matt got in behind me and pulled the blankets up over us and wrapped his arms around me pulling me to his chest "the pain will get better within time, but i'm always here babby no matter what" he whispered into my ear making me whimper a bit, i was in so much emotional pain from losing our daughter it was ridiclouse, and he always knew the right thing to say to me.

I woke up screaming, i thrusted up in the bed and bashed my head off of the bunk, i quickly crawled over Matt and ran into the small tour bus bathroom and just sunk down to the floor after locking the door, i started sobbing. i heard a bunch of footsteps and mummering. after a few moments i heard knocking on the door

"Alexa, hun whats wrong" i heard Matt say as he leaned against the door

"N-nothing, tell the guys i'm sorry for waking them it won't happen again i know how exhusted you all are" i quickly pulled myself together and looked in the mirror,my eyes were blood shot and puffy, i opened the door and quickly made my way to the front of the bus to grab coffee, i saw all the guys sitting around the table and i frowned 

"aw shit, guy's i'm so sorry" they just shook their heads and i sat down far away from them, and i saw them all frown as i did so 

"Alexa we are not mad at you, we couldn't be" Jimmy spoke up. and i just started to cry as they said this. they all came over and knelt down or stood by me and tried to soothe me, if only they knew how much i was really hurting.

Alexa's Dream

"hello there my beautiful Angel" i smiled and walked into the nursery Matt had done when we got back from the tour. i had gotten a bottel and was prepaired to feed it to her, as Matt walked into the room her smiled "Let me help babe" he said as i picked her up from the crib, i moved the blanket from her face and almost dropped her...her face was a mangled mess her teeth sharp as razors and her eyes were pure black but the pupil red. Matt smiled and took her from me and sat down with the bottle "hello Angel, you don't want this yucky milk do you" he quickly pulled out a bottel of blood and my eyes widened....what the hell is going on i thought, i turned away to get a grip on reality and as i turned back Matt had the same feautures as our daughter and a big chunk missing from his neck blood pouring out, i looked down as i heard Angel gurgle and giggle...thats when i saw that she was chewing on Matt's flesh.