Away

; sand castles

"I love you,"

Your voice was like a whisper, but i heard it loud and clear. I never missed any word that came out of your lips. That night, you held me so tight as if you never wanted to let me go. I felt safe. It was cold and i didn't understand why you took me to the beach that day.

"I know we might go separate ways in the future, but i pray to God everyday that we would last forever. You're the only source of happiness i have, and i don't know what i would be if you leave."

I still remember what you said, word by word. I was shaking as you held me. I was holding myself back from crying because, Jeonghan, i had never thought that you'd say that. I had never seen you so scared, so fragile. I didn't hug you back because i was afraid if i held you tight, you might break into more pieces.

"Please don't leave me."

And it was me who broke into pieces as i heard you say that. I tried so hard not to break you, so i broke myself instead. Even though i rarely said it back, i did love you, Jeonghan. How could i leave when all of my thoughts were consumed by you?

The waves were dragged back to the sea as i felt my heart dragged itself down; you being the anchor. I was kicking the sands off my shoes, but i ended up kicking the sand castles that you and i built. I watched as they fell down like the ashes of cigarettes and my heart fell deeper and deeper into the sea. I couldn't swim, though you could, you never tried to teach me.