Who Am I Now?

Chapter 2

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Chapter 2:

As soon as those words left her mouth I felt as if the whole room began to spin around me. I felt as if my whole life was a lie. Ever since I could remember I had gone around treating humans like the scum of the earth because I had believed they murdered my parents but now that I know my own father was a human and that him and my mom were killed by my own kind... what does that mean for my life? All of these different memories of me treating humans like crap ran through my mind, hateful things I had done and said that now just left me with remorse. 

I had to fix this, I had no idea how yet but I knew I had to. I was never a person of injustice, the only reason I thought humans were so disgusting was because I thought they had wronged my family, but now what? Now I'm the monster.  

I realized after awhile that while I was off in my own head my aunt had continued to try to get my attention. As hard as I tried though I just couldn't focus on the words that were coming out of her mouth. After a while of trying to understand what she was saying I decided to give up and simply stood up and walked to my room, locking the door behind me. My family kept knocking on my door asking me to open up but I just couldn't. They knew what I was doing and they let me continue with my hate towards humans, not once even suggesting that I not be so cruel. 

My room was big with a queen sized bed and dresser that fit in well with my relaxed attitude. My walls were covered with pictures of me growing up. I walked over and looked at the picture above my bed. It was the picture of all 6 of us just relaxing in Kaydens backyard. That day was filled with so much laughter and happiness that I could never forget it. Looking closely though I no longer felt like the girl in the picture. I no longer had the hate she had in her heart.

Sure everything was stil weird and confusing for me but it just wasn't the same anymoe and I knew it never would be. In a span of maybe 20 minutes my life had changed more then I ever thought possible. I could never keep killing humans with so much hate, especially knowing now that I am practically one of them. 

As soon as I thought that I came to a realization. My friends would never accept me if they knew the truth. They weren't monsters or anything but they had each gone through so much suffering and had so much hate for humans that if they knew I was a Dhampir it change everything for them. It pained me to think this but as I kept thinking I realized just how true it all was. 

I spent hours thinking of ways to make them not hate me, what I could say or do. But truth be told I changed and I just couldn't see a way that they'd accept who I'm becoming.  

It was with that, that I decided to pack up my bags and leave.