Drifting (Yaoi BoyXBoy)

Four

Four

"I'm back!" I called out to Ryo. I held the small plastic bag in my hand as I slowly went upstairs.

I peeked into our bedroom, and didn't see him. Where is he? "Ryo?!" I called out again.

I rushed to our bathroom, and didn't see him there either. "Ryo, where are you?!"

I ran back downstairs, and bumped into him on the way down. "Ryo! Why didn't you answer me?! I was scared shitless!" I grabbed him.

"Sorry, I was..outside." He looks off to the side.

"Doing what?"

"I needed some fresh air. Did you get the pain killers?"

"Yes, of course." I handed him the bag.

"Thanks." He takes the bag, and walks pass me.

"No, stop it." I grabbed his wrist, and he looks at me with a blank stare.

"Hm?"

"Nothing..." I released him. There was no point in trying right now.

"Hm okay." He starts walking upstairs, leaving me alone again.

I couldn't stand this lonliness any longer. I went back outside, and decided on a walk.

I'm sad. I'm upset, but I won't give up on him. I love him too much. Then again, I am questioning his love for me at this point. Is he sad about his grandma? When did she pass? There is no way this is lingering for so long. Maybe I should ask him, but I didn't want to touch any sensitive subjects.

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I got into the city, and there were a couple guys picking on this woman in an alleyway. How did they get her there? She had her small daughter with her.

"Yo bitch, give us your purse!" They screamed at her. Her daughter was already in tears.

I decided to help her. "Hey! Stop that! Leave her alone!" I yelled.

All three men, and the woman with her child stared at me.

"You want to be involved motherfucker?!" The one with a red mohawk spoke.

"Yeah I do!" I stepped in. I hadn't fought in a while, but I still was capable.

All three of them charged at me. Two of them grabbed my arms. How typical. I twisted my arm out of their grasp, and punched them each in the face. The leader charged at me, and punched me square in my jaw.

"Stop this!" The woman cries.

"Leave hurry!" I called out to her.

She seemed hesitant, but left quietly as I took the beatings.

I felt punches on my stomach, chest, and face. I was a bit too cocky thinking I could take all these buff looking guys at once.

I could feel them trying to find my wallet. Tough luck, I don't carry my wallet with me when I go for a walk. I don't even have money.

"What a poor ass bum! He got nothing. Let's bail!" The leader with the mohawk disbanded the fight, and ran off.

I felt like shit. Busted mouth, and nose, but I felt a sense of accomplishment. I helped out someone today. It has been a while since I felt useful. I had to emerge a small smile just thinking about it.

Maybe right now is a sign I should go home. I won't lie, I was always fearful to go home. I was scared that Ryo might do something to himself when I was gone. There is no top or bottom of this relationship. We shared an equal amount of responsibility when it came to taking care of one another. It's just as of lately, I felt I needed the attention that I wasn't receiving. I didn't want to leave, but a part of me felt like staying was torture.